Are you pregnant???

Yup that is what some lady said to me today at the spa when I went to get my eye brows done. Now I am gonna hope that she was just asking me to ask or for some other reason and not for the fact that I look it. Also I was wearing sweats and a sweater jacket so I guess that it could be that too. I dont know.

Any way moving on from that is what I ate today....

B panckaes and sausage
S hummus and veggies
L smart one
S no
L steak mashed potatos and broccoli and a little salad
S cereal and FF milk

That is what I had and it is good I think. I did get a small ten minute walk in today and that is something and I burned about 20 calories at the music class with gab today since they have you up and dancing.

Okay girlie I am tired and I know that you are working and may not even have time to look at this so I am gonna just cut it short.

Goodnight!!!

C

Stupid thing

Stupid thing I posted typed the whole thing and all and it lost it some how. that never happened before. Either way Darren is sick so this will be really fast now since it is the second try.

Sorry !!

Today I ate

B egg white omlet
S no
L ham sandwich
S blueberries
D pasta w veggies and olive oil and cheese
S cereal and FF milk

That will be it!


Love ya!

Crystal

Oh boy

Finally heard from her.

Hey I want to start with the most important news that I finally talked to my sister! Yipee! She is at a restaraunt but does not have the ability to use her laptop. I am not surprised as I thought that this was what was happening but I was worried. she said that she will be able to email me more now because she got the key to the place and can go down and use the computer. I am so happy!

Okay this is how I did today with the eating.

B egg white omlet
s no
L turkey falt bread with veggies and hummus and a few strawberries
S few cheerios and blueberries and a small glass FF milk
D piece and a half of meatloaf and a red potato
S cereal w FF milk.

So I think that I did okay. I did not of course get to work out at all and that is the part that I hate! But I am going to get a walk in tommorrow morning before I take gab to her library class. Then on Sat. I am taking the kids to a sample music class and I am really going to get a good walk in both days this weekend. I would love to get to the gym but I am not as hopeful that that will happen. Because noone watchs gab for me to go. Arg.

Anyway. I hope that you had a good time at the gym today and that everything went well for you! I also hope that you are able to get some good rest as I know that you have a crazy schedule this week. Okay I will talk to you tommorrow. Love ya

Crystal

Ending to today

So, I did really stick to my previous post with one minor infarction, before going to the gym, I stopped by GNC and got me a cranberry almond bar, all natural. I was absolutely starving and was ready to vomit. It only had 13g of sugars, and something like 190 calories. So it was not that bad, and I almost finished the 1.5L of water that I bought.

For dinner we had chicken, couscous, asparagus, and according to my meal plan I was able to have a chocolate chip cookie. So I had about 495 calories total for dinner. All together today if I had 1200 calories I am doing really good.

I did go to the gym today, I did the 20 minute circuit training and I did 22 minutes on the treadmill, totaling a whopping 297 calories combined...ooooohhhh. Geesh, I wish I would have burned more. Whatever, I burned something. I will be hitting the gym again tomorrow.

I am so exhausted it isn't even funny. I am going to go lay down right now because my rear has to be up at 5 am again.

Hope to talk to you soon. Maybe on Friday. Miss you too girlie. Keep up the good work!

Love ya,
Jenn

miss ya lady Jane

Hey Lady,

I miss ya. I read your post and saw what you were up to and after all that you have done and been doing the last 4 days I do not mind if you spend all your extra time sleeping rather then talking but not long after that I want a lot of phone calls!!

Sorry to hear that you are still fighting the battle with the baby and the crib. I cannot tell you how it is going because I have been so lazy about it and have given up for now. I feel like a slacker and an excuse maker but I just have not done it and there is no other reason other than I cannot stand how bad I feel for her when she is screaming like I am killing her. I dont know but if I do sometime in the future I will let you know. You at least have hope!

I know that it is hard to have a set back of the pound or so. I know that you can get back down and then some. You are going to be going to the gym again and you can make your own food at home so you will be okay. I think that it is a great idea to kick the soda and I know that it is not something that you always had but if you can find a way to get by without it then you will be okay!!! I am giving it up for lent and Darren is giving up mcdonalds. I have been doing good with the soda anyway so this can just give me an extra reason to do good!

I think that you should go to church!!! But do you have one yet? Look around because they say when you feel things like that that it is god calling you! He is calling you back and by all means you should go with or without the rest of the cambells. Once you start them you can get the others in the house to go. I know that autumn would go with you though.

I think that I did well today with my food. It was ash wednesday so I was sopposed to fast, at the minium they say have two small meals and no snacks and one regular meal. I did okay. I ate less and I thought about it oh yeah and no meat. That I did do! so here it is.

B two small lowfat panncakes and a few strawberries, coffee and a water
s no
L footlong veggie sub at subway
S no
D Pasta with olive oil, parmeson cheese and broccoli
s cereal with FF milk

So I think I did okay. The pasta that I had I made and it was really yummy. I loved it and they say to get alittle olive oil in your diet so I found a way that works good. I have to look around more on SP like you have and see what esle there is to see.

I have not talked to my sis in a week since she went to her new place and I am so sad! I wish that I could talk to her but she must be in a place with no service. It just really sucks because there is no one that we can call to see if she is okay or not. It sucks. I wish she would call or write or something. So that we would know something.

okay girl I am gonna go look around on SP for a bit.

Miss ya. I hope you guys are back to a more regular schedule today.

Crystal

PS I dont know if I will ever be a size four but thanks for the kind words it keeps my head up when noone esle is helping......

I'm Back

It feels so good to be back home. Let me tell you this trip to El Paso was hard, and long. I didn't get back with the baby until 11 last night and then he decided that he wasn't going to go back to sleep right away so I fought that until about 12. I even tried laying him in his bed, but he wasn't having it, so Crystal, you can welcome me to your world. I don't know what I am going to do, but I know that I am mad because I screwed up his sleep pattern.

I talked to the doc about him getting up in the middle of the night for a bottle and he said that it is completely normal up until about 15 months, but only once a night, anything more than that and I need to talk to him. He also said that the bottle should be given in the dark with no stimulation and then lay him right back down and hopefully he will go right back to sleep.

So today, this is what I have and am going to eat:

B-3/4 of a banana (if that)
S-None
L-6 inch tuna from subway with my usual veggies
S-None
D-Chicken (have to find a recipe)

And I did drink a coffee this morning but I was (and still am) so exhausted, but I am have a 1.5L of water with me and that is what I am going to drink. I am also thinking that although I may be tired, I HAVE to get to the gym today. I got on the scale this morning and I put on 1.5 lbs or so during this period. So I am going to have to work hard to get it back off again.

Crystal, you are doing so good with your weight. I am so looking forward to leaving the 220s behind but I seem to be stagnate. You just keep going mama....I can't wait to see you get into a size 4. That will be totally awesome. I will try your thing about watering down the cranberry juice, but it will be hard. I am going to try really hard to kick the soda, cold turkey. I only started drinking it again lately, I usually don't touch the stuff. But I have to kick it completely.

Lately I have had this itch to go to church on Sunday mornings...and I haven't gone. But there is something eating at me. I think that this Sunday I am going to go come hell or high water alone or with my family or even with portions of my family.

Crystal, how are things going with Gab and the crib? Did you try your shirt on the mattress? I think I am going to have to try the same thing. I will work on that tonight when I get home. See if it helps any at all.

Alright chickee, I think that is it, I hope that we get to talk soon. I know that tonight is probably out of the question because I get off at 5 your time and I know that you are doing dinner and bath after that. I work the same thing tomorrow. But maybe we can talk on Friday.

Love ya
Jenn

oh and!

Oh yeah and I am back to the SPARK WORLD!!! so I hope we can keep each other company!

weighing in....

My weigh in today is DADADADADAD

Down 2.6

169.4!!!

Goodbye to the damn 170s and I hope to NEVER see them again! So long farwell!

I think that i did good today and I will tell you about it in a second...

But I am just thinking that I feel for you girl. THere is almost no way to do good when you do not have your own kitchen and fridge to pull from during each meal. I know that it gets you down when this happens but just get on the horse again when you get home. You have been doing so well with the gym and I am so proud of you for that! So keep it up. Just a quick suggestion that I have for you. I see that you like cranberry juice and so do I. But it has a lot of sugar and I dont want to give it up so I began watering it down. Start with just a little bit maybe like 10 percent water and the rest juice. Just moving it up as you can tolerate. This would be a great idea for you to keep what tastes good and maybe kick the soda (devil) to the curb. I think it might help try it!

I hope that little Caleb is okay and a tough cookie. I know that he will be. I am just glad that this has to happen now rather than when he was older. My cousin had a hernia that had to be removed and was FINE! It was a full surgery but the kid was like jumping around (and being yelled at to stop of course) the very next day. I am not sure if that will help but I think it might ease your mind a little bit.

I hope that you were able to make the best of it and got to go to the stores and get some good stuff. I know you had a few things in mind and clothing for the little or rather big guy!

Okay here is what I ate for today and then two things I want to tell you.

B egg white omlet
S no
L six inch roasted chicken breast and sm coffee
S hummus and veggies and a sm handful of blueberries
D meatloaf that I made, a potato and green beans
S (I did not eat this yet but I am going to) Cereal with FF milk

I am concerned that I am not having enough milk. It was just something that I was thinking today. I am not eating alot of dairy so I think that it is okay that I have the small bowl of cereal at the evening snack sometimes.

Okay here is the two things I wanted to point out. I have lost 19 pounds. Not quite 20. But I got on the scale holding gab today and I was one, ONE pound heavier than I used to be before we started this Journey. So there for I lost a gab. lol. THat made me realize what A great thing I have done for my body, joints, muscles, bones and heart. I want to do more! I hope that you are seeing some results from the gym too because I really want us to keep this up!

The other thing that I wanted to tell you is that this week I lost 2.6 so it was more than the last few weeks and I think that the difference may be that I have almost nothing to drink other than one coffee and all water. I SOMETIMES have a diet soda. Which I know you do not like but sometimes I do. And I also think that it might be the fact that I have done away with a snack. Almost each day I am skipping the mid morning snack. All this observing that I have done has been through this blog. So thank you very much for this!!!

Love ya
Crystal

I hate coming to El Paso

Okay, so I love coming so I can see my family and go shopping and get the baby taken care of, BUT I HATE having to deal with eating. I have eaten like crap since I have been here.

Sunday:
L-Whataburger with fries and a little Dr. Pepper
D-(9:00 p.m.) A personal pan pizza from Pizza Hut

Today:
B-1/4 of a Belgian Waffle, a hard boiled egg, 1/4 peach yogurt and 1/3 cup of Cranberry Juice
L-Jack in the box sourdough jack with fries and almost 3/4 of a Large Dr. Pepper

So as you can see this is very very difficult, especially because I am constantly on the go and cannot find the time to sit down and eat a good meal. I am getting hungry now because lunch was at about 2:00, and I am thinking that I am going to order a salad from applebees and have Jeff go get it.

Let me tell you Crystal, I am completely exhausted. I have been doing nothing but running, since, God I don't know when. I told Caleb today that I need like a day of 20 hours of sleep. I think that would help me.

I am dreading tomorrow. My niece takes her little girl to the same Dr. we are going to tomorrow and she says that we will probably be there all day. But more than just being there all day I am afraid of what he is going to say. His doc today said that he may want to repeat the study to see if he can figure out exactly what is going on if there is a problem with the kidney. Oh and his left testicle still hasn't descended so that is almost a for sure surgery. This is very nerve wrecking for me.

I am sorry that you are feeling alone, I had full intentions of talking to you today. Maybe tomorrow.

Caleb made out pretty well today. The doc said that his upper respiratory infection is gone, but he still has a little bit in his nose. He got his Hib shot today and he didn't cry and he's not being fussy or anything and no fever. So this is good.

Alright so I just looked at the time and Applebees is not going to be an option. I will just wait and eat in the morning.

Talk to you later chickadee,

Love ya,
Jenn

All ALONE>>>>>

Hey Girl! I know that you are out in el paso and cannot get on here but I still feel alone! Sorry..... : ) I know you will fill me in on how you have been doing as soon as you get a chance and you sure will have a lot of crap from me to read. So if you want to skip some of the posts you can. Some of them are just blah blah blah anyway!

Today I took a twenty minute walk. It was cold and I would have went longer but i felt bad for the baby and she was all cozy in the stroller with a blanket, snow suit and hat but I still did not want her out to long.

Anyway, this is what I ate

B egg white omlet
S no
L flat bread sandwich that I made with Turkey and cheese and mustard and beets
S coffee
D three pieces of sauce pizza only and strawberries
S a small bowl of cereal

I think that I did okay. I am not going to go on and on tonight. I hope that my weight is good tommorrow. I am going to give you a call soon.

So it ended okay too I think

This is what I ate and I know you are not at a computer so I am just gonna put the food here and then hit the hay, besides you have enough to read from me~

B egg white omlet
S strawberries
L 1/2 sandwich and 1/2 bowl of tomato soup. 1/2 of banana
S other half of banana
D Salad and 4 small pieces of spinach and tomato pizza with just sauce
S strawberries and small coffee

All I got in for exercise was a half hour slow walk around walmart tonight. I have a najor head ache and I have been over the last few days. I thought it might be about coffee so I had one tonight and it did not help at all. So I dont know what it is about.

I miss ya already and I hope your trip was not too bad.


C

Needing to post

I feel the need to get on here and post because the desire to cheat is really bad for me today. I dont know what it is. I ate good so far but at lunch I made a sandwcih and soup and I ate only half the sandwich and it was a small one and half the soup and half a banana. I was hungry just now and it is a time I could have a snack so I had some cereal and then went right to the cabinet and the fridge. I dont know what is going on but I am hungry and I feel like I am gonna give in and I dont want to so here I am like A pyscho putting it all down on paper, so to speak, so that I have accountablity established and I hope that will help me not cheat. Gab is resting and I really should to after the night that we had good gravy.

I gotta get out of this house when she wakes up I think that is the problem.


Talk to you later and I hope your drive is going as well as it can with a little one all that way. I would be in an institution but we all know Gab is slightly more demanding at times!

C

the end of the day..

Hey Girl.

I sent you a pic in your email.

I am doing good and I think I did okay with .the days food .

B egg white omelet with sauasage and a slice of cheese
S no
L egg white flat bread and a banana and a coffee
S no
D steak and mashed potato, salad, small slice of bread with butter, carrots
S strawberries

THe mashed potatos was a bit much but it was okay and I got a walk in for only 20 minutes but it is better than nothing.

Now, look at the pic when you get a chance.

Love ya,
Crystal

Okay so today hasn't been too bad with my eating, although I am trying to figure out what to do for dinner because all I have is the debit card.

B-1 3/4 cup multi grain cheerios
S-5 carrots and a little bit of spinach artichoke hummus
L-Baked potato and the grilled chicken off of a caesar salad.

The real bad thing right now is that I don't have anything to drink because I didn't have time to stop and get me something...so I don't know what I am going to do. But I'm sure it will work out.

I am dreading this trip to El Paso. I hate the drive, and the baby never does very well on these drives. Not to mention that Monday afternoon the baby has to get his shots, and we all know how those go.

Alrighty well that is all for right now, I hope that your day went okay Crystal.

Talk to you tomorrow before I leave town.

Love ya,
Jenn

Flooding the blog again

Hi you. I am flooding it again! I cannot help it I love to be here and post. i do not know what it is! LOL

Anyway this morning John asked me to go out for breakfast and I was thinking about going but then he said what are you going to have and I thought about it and said an egg white omlet. He of course said that it was silly to go to the Pancake house and have egg whites and SO I said I am not gonna screw up my diet. OH NO. and made my egg white omelet here. I am so happy that I did because Donna has her Party this afternoon and I do not intend to pig out but we all know tat the road to hell was paved with Good intentions. So if I am on here and crying later than you know why.

You should see my toothless baby eat omelets!!! Now, I know that eggs are normally a no go until after one, but I told you she has had them by accident in the baby food no less! So I have been giving her a piece of my omelt like a fourth each morning and SHE LOVES IT! She is such a good little eater and I think that what she is doing is keeping her teeth in there for safe keeping because she does fine without them. LOL.

I think that it a bit I am going to go for a walk. It is pretty nice today so I hope that this will happen. If not I am going to be mad becuase that will be two days without working out. Okay I will talk to you about it later. I really hope that you are doing well today and I am home now so if you read this and you are around then CALL me chickee.

Love ya!
Crystal

hey you again. lol

Hey, It is really late and I am beat. John decided that he wanted to count and roll change tonight and I was helping and it took forever ! THere is over 500 dollars in change there! OMG lol

Anyway I missed you call today because I spent the day out and you did not call the cell so I hope that you get to call me tommorrow. I dont think you have to work. I also hope that you got your tax return because I got mine. I miss talking to you! Maybe you were out the rest of the day treating your self that would be nice !

I hope that the baby went to bed before and that he is feeling better. I am sorry that you are having a hard time at bedtime to. I have no advice but I can tell you that I know how you feel.

This is what I ate.

Egg white omlet with two sausage and a slice of cheese, coffee
S no
L chicken sandwich fron wendys and half potato
S no
D lleft over chicken marsala and a potato and peas
S cereal and strawberries

Okay I guess that I did good now that I look at it but I felt like I ate more. I guess I felt bad eating wendys. It was the grilled sandwich though and it is not all that bad. Under 300 calories as I looked it up on line.

I am sorry that I am not saying alot tonight but I am really tired. We have this crazy benefit thing that Donna is doing tommorrow and I am dreading it to be honest. I know it will be loud and crazy and Gab HATES men HATES HATES HATES and cries like they are killing her. My love muffin. SHe loves her mama!

Okay girl. I gotta go to bed.
LOve ya.
Crystal

hey you.

MIA

So I have been MIA for a couple of days, but I have been busy and absolutely exhausted. But I am back.

The last couple of days I have not eaten too bad. I have substituted and cheated a little bit, but nothing real big, I am still following the SP diet, so I am hoping to see results soon.

Crystal, I hear you about the whole baby in the bed thing. Caleb is 100% COMPLETELY used to sleeping with us and falling asleep with us next to him. As I am typing this I have him in his crib, trying to get him to realize that he needs to lay down and sleep. He's making noise, but he's not crying uncontrollably. I know he's tired it has been 3.5 hours since he last slept. We shall see. If I go in there and lay down with him I am going to pass out and not move him into his crib. Boy we are in the same situation.

So far today I have eaten:

B-2 whole wheat pieces of toast with jam and 3/4 of a yoplait lf strawberry yogurt
L-egg salad on 2 pieces of whole wheat toast with 1/2 a banana

Okay I better go, he is getting quite upset. I'll be back later.

J

Well it ended okay....

But I reverted to eating out of stress for a second but you know I will get by because it was only cereal. I just need to be careful with that!

B egg and salsa with two sausage
S no
L smart one with a cup of extra pasta
S strawberries and milk coffee
D chicken marsala one potato and peas
S cereal with FF milk

And I got the 35 min walk in today so I guess it was pretty good.

The stress was that we got gabs crib down and I tried and am still trying to get her to sleep in it. SO to say the least I am stressed to the max and John and I are ready to FUCKING yup I said it kill each other. So I am ready for this to be done, She is in there right now but I am not sure how long it will last we shall see. Oh My it made me really sad. I tried to let her CIO at some times but I cannot. I am not that strong I guess. So I kinda gave in and put her in my bed and got her to sleep and then moved her to the crib. I guess if this has to take alot longer than it does for some moms then that is what it has to be. Arg.

I hope that you had a good day and I did this a bit backwards because I did not look to see if you posted first and then I would know how your day was! I am going to go look and if there is something that I need to talk to you about then I will if not I am going to bed!

love ya,

Crystal

Off to a good start

Just popping in. Gab and I just went for a 35 min wallk. It was nice but still a bit chilly. She was really toasty though in her snow suit and a blanket and she was in the car seat in the stroller (facing me) because she is not crazy about facing the other way yet. Anyway. I feel good that we got something in and now she is sleeping so I figured I would post this and hope that it inspired me to have a good end to the day.

Have a good time at work and I hope those wacko stay in line today!

Crystal

Pretty good I think

Hey Girl,

I think that today was okay here is what I ate

B flatbread and egg whites and coffee
S no
L turkey sandwich w one piece of cheese and mustard and strawberries
S pretzals and water
D carrots and a veggie burger and a half one of them on two slices light bread and a few strawberries
S tea and two slices toast with a little jelly and PB and a banana

Now you would say that I had alot of bread. But I did not have alot of fat at all. So I guess it depends on what you believe whether or not I did good. I did not however exericse. I would have gone for a walk but it is raining and snowing outside so nope.

I hope that the night is going good for you at work and that you enjoyed your rice and beans.

I am sorry that I dont have a ton to say but I am planning on watching the rest of this junk on tv and then hitting the hay.

Love ya,
Crystal

Gotta get to the Sp page asap....

hey girl,

I am glad to hear that you are using SP and that you liked what you made of the web. Was it cold or hot with the Salsa? hmmm..Just thinking about that. It did sound good though and I am glad that the family liked it. I am also glad that you are calming the cravings and getting it under control. The fact that your jeans are responding means alot more than a number each week so I am really excited to here that you are feeling like they are looser. That is great news. Also the fact that you are going to the gym regardless is soooo good. AND I really feel like if you keep it up you are going to see what you want!

Okay, my guess is that the numbers that I am getting weekly is going to stop if I do not get more exercise in. I did get the Jog/run in the other day but not today. So we will see what happens. I wish that I could get out into the gym each day but it is not going to happen. Blah. I also think that alot of this has to do with I am feeling like this is the ONE thing that I can do for myself that I CONTROL and that noone can take from me.....And to be honest it is empowering that the numbers are happening. But like I said I would love to see 3 or 4 pounds a week. Whatever. Plus my gram today told me that my cousin laura is losing weight and that she is doing good. My gram has not said a think to me at all. I have lost 16 pounds and she did not notice a pound.....Um what is wrong here. SO when things like that happen I think about...What the hell... Oh and Donna the other day said oh your lost some weight and then I said guess what size pants I got and she said 14? I was like No 10!! And she was surprised. I dont know Jenn sometimes I feel like people see me but they dont see me. Like I have managed to be invisible. Who am I ? I dont think that I know anymore.

but I can do one thing and that thing is that I can keep up with my diet and hope for the best with that. It is something. I am trying to make it a pattern and get it down then go after the control in some other spot of my life.

B egg white sandwich and a half banana and coffee.
S no
L pasta at my gram with sauce and a meatball but not a lot.
S no
D some squash with a little butter, a bowl of cereal and cucumber.

i think that you can tell that my dinners have been really weird over the last few days. That is in no way on purpose.

Okay this is weird and you are going to think that I am a nut. But the cat coco had crazy astma attacks last night and I had this dream/kinda awake thought in the early AM the way that I said to you I do sometimes and it was to put the cat in her carrier cover it with a heavy towel and hold the asthma machine so that the vapors go in and the cat breaths them in. now honest to god jenn I looked it up online and it says STEP by STEP to do that very thing. Okay it is really small and weird but I am telling you there is something about those thoughts that I have every AM at like 5. I do not think that it is all just co wince a dince lol I cant spell it lol for real but you got it huh?

Maybe that was what the dream with my mom in the house was about. That I am unrecognizable.

Love ya have fun at work and go easy. I want to talk to you tommorrow I hope.

Crystal

Jealous

Crystal,

I am so jeallous of you, but yet so happy for you. I try and try and try and no results, and all you have to do is change your eating and you're dropping weight like crazy. I really want to see a change in my weight. It is so discouraging. The one thing that keeps me going is the fact that my jeans are fitting differently. I am happy to see though that you are getting results I was afraid that you would not have stuck with it if you would not have seen results. But gosh, a couple of months and you'll be in a size 4!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!

So my day started off crappy because I guess one of my officers doesn't like me or he is just an ass, but my boss made me feel much better. So I am in a better mood now.

So, I went to the gym today, but due to a lingering migraine I could only do 20 minutes on the treadmill. But it was another 150 calories burned. I am hoping that tomorrow I am going to be able to get some weight training in. I am also going to change my routine on the treadmill. I am going to a 10 minute warm up then change the speed and the incline and do 20 minutes and then go ahead and do a 10 minute cool down. So that will up my treadmill to 40 minutes. Hopefully that will help.

Girl I tried one of the meals off of SP and Jeff and I love it. It is whole wheat thin spaghetti .12oz with 1/4 chicken breasts, and onions, covered in 1/2 cup of salsa and 2oz of cheese.

I have stuck to my diet today, minus a starbucks double shot (3/4 of a can) and a starbucks vanilla cold coffee large (3/4 of a jar). So that was probably 400 of EMPTY calories. So I know that was bad. But I think that I am getting a better grasp on my cravings and saying no. I wanted a candy bar today and did not get one.

So today I ate:

B-2 pieces of toast, small butter, blackberries and water
S-None
L-2 tortillas with lf ham with mayonnaise and tomatoes and spicy brown mustard, and a lf yoplait strawberry yogurt
S-7 baby carrots and very small amt of lf kraft ranch dressing
D-the spaghetti with the chicken
S-Whole wheat dinner roll

Okay so I haven't done all that bad, I am proud of myself. Not to mention that even though my inner thighs are screaming at me for the workout yesterday...I still went to the gym today.

Alright I guess that is all for tonight. Oh by the way I added you to my sparkpage and my username is autcodjadcal...if you want to add me as a friend.

Love ya bunches,

Jenn

weighing in....

I am weighing in for the week and I am at 172.0. So I am down 1.4 for the third week in a row. It seems to be the number that I am holding! I am happy but I wish that it was faster like on the biggest loser! I know that they work harder but gee it would be nice to lose 16 pounds in one week!!!! Arg.

Anyway I will talk with you about food later.

Love ya and I hope you are doing well!

Me

WOW

Um we posted at like the same time so go down and read mine will yah....LOL.

Great minds think alike!

C

Pretty Good Day

So today was pretty good.

Here is what I ate:

B-none
S-none
L-Pita sandwich with 2 tomato slices. light mayonnaise and a 1/2 cup of fruit cocktail
S-Foot long from Subway the spicy italian with tomatoes, black olives, banana peppers, lettuce, and lite mayonnaise and mustard
D-Celery Sticks with cream cheese, raisins and a 60 calorie chocolate pudding

Now today was really good for the gym...I did 25 minutes on the treadmill did just over a mile and did 20 minutes in the circuit training...totalling 549 calories burned. WOOHOO!!!!

Tonight is going better at work and all around so this is relief. I hope that your night is going well. I will check in on here later to see whats up.

Love ya so much,

Jenn

Big lunch but exercised= even???

Okay jenn, I told you that I went out to lunch today with the kids but I think that I did okay you let me know what you think.

B egg in a nest and a piece of toast
S no
L hamburger from friendlys with cheese, but only half the bun, salad with italian dressing but only a little, a little soup, and a slice of toast. It was Gabs and she did not even touch it! SO I let it get to me....
S no
D smart one and strawberries
S cereal with FF milk

Okay but her is the good part. I exercised today. I went for a walk with Darren and I walked for ten minutes then jogged for ten and walked for ten more. So I got some calories out anyway. maybe I burned off the cheese and a piece of toast. THat would be better for nothing. When I was doing it I was thinking that part of what gave me motive to get out and go was the fact that you are at the gym working out now. I need to stop complaining and get the hell out there and do something and although it is really cold out. If I can get John to keep Gab for 30 minutes then I can get in a walk each day and that is what I did. It is a start. better than nothing.

LOL darren just brought me up a banana and I said no thanks. Funny kid. Monkey, of a kid.

Heather came over here tonight and I am not alone. That is good.

Oh I had a coffee today. I guess you can say it was a snack.

Okay girl sorry that I did not have a ton to say but the bachelor is on and I am watching the trash that is this show.

Love ya and have a good rest of the night!

Crystal

Weird day for the diet...

Okay, I had a weird day with the dieting today but before I get into that I want to talk with you about you.

I know that you are struggling with the diet and I am so happy that you had aa good day at home. That being said be sure that you are getting what you need to eat at home so that you are not as tempted at work where it is that much easier to go crazy. Okay and another thought, I see that you are doing most of the things that you should but you are not seeing what you want on the scale and I am wondering if it is not your fault at all.....You are taking the anti d pills and I am telling you they were really bad for my weight. Like worse than pregnancy. So just watch that, and they made me an emotional wreck. I was crying each and everyday like I was dying. And granted it was a really really low part of my life and I had reasons to cry. I am not sure if it would have been so Constant if I was not on the pills. This is all just a thought. I do not think that there is something esle wrong with you!!!

Also, you really do so much better when you bring your own snacks to work. So dont forget them when you are walking out the door. I am not sure if I would be doing any better than you are if my routine was so crazy. So dont get down about that. And good for you for working out! You earned a twix bar and that is not nothing.

Okay here is what I ate...

B flat bread egg white sandwich and a banana and coffee
s no
L Salad and a smart one
S strawberries with FF milk
D bowl of cereal, 3 inchs of Darrens sub (turkey and cheese with LTM) and a large handful of goldfish and one bite of his ice cream dips (very small), few blueberries

Okay I know that the dinner looked crazy and I felt crazy eating it. I was not feeling 100 percent today with my stomach so what I did at dinner was pick at stuff. I did not eat a lot at all it was just a bunch of bites of this and that. So I guess I did pretty good with my eating. Darren and I am the baby went to walmart and walked around so I would say I got 30 mins of light walking in today. It is something, rather than nothing!

AT church the girl that I talk to was there today, Lynn with the baby story, anyway. I was looking at her and looking at her and I was like is she PG???? I was so scared to be wrong but she caught me looking at her like 10 times and it was either let her think that I had a crush on her or say something...SO I did and I WAS RIGHT!!! But because of what happened to her the last time she is not saying anything to her family yet. I cannot believe it! I know WHY that I get but SHE LOOKS IT!!! OH boy! She is gonna have to tell them soon!

Okay that is about all the stuff that I can say for today. I am thinking about going down stairs and getting something but I am not going to. I am going to try to force myself to sleep.

Love ya and have a good rest of the night at work .I hope it is as calm as it can be for you!

Crystal

Sabatoge

Okay, so I have decided that my purpose in life is to self-sabatoge myself. I did really awesome today with my eating, I ate everything on my diet plan and even skipped some things like the raisins and the cottage cheese. But I get to work, am completely depressed and what do I do, but eat 3 twix bars and have 4 sips of a Dr. Pepper.

I'm telling you Crystal I am going to lose my mind very soon. I can feel it coming. It's pretty sad that even on pills I am still a mess, which leads me to believe that there is something far worse with me.

I work out today for 20 minutes for what? NOTHING.

UGHHHHHH. Okay I'm done for tonight. I will check up on you later to see how things went for you today, but don't expect too much from me.

Jenn

Small miracle

Just stopping in to share my small miracle. The fact that I got on the scale today and did not GAIN weight from eating like that last night!! I am happy with that at least. I am not posting my weight because I am really trying to stick to tuesdays so that way I can look at my history. Just posting the fact that I did not GAIN. I hope you can say the same. Going out to dinner is a killer. Everything is sosoooooo yummy. I am waiting to hear from you in a while and I hope that the gym was good this morning.

LOVE ya,
Crystal

PS I will post about food later!

Valentines day...oh boy

Okay today was shot that is all I can say

B two slice french toast and two sausage
S no
L turkey sandwich and salad
S a small toostie roll and a few strawberries
S Bagel with jelly and little peanut butter
D steak, bread and butter, salad with full fat dressing and 1/2 fired mozzerella....As you can see BAD

BADBABDBDBABDABDBABDABDBADBABDBABDABDBABDBADBABDBADBABDBABDABDBABDBADBABDADB

THat is all that I can say.

Please god let me get on the scale tommorrow and not have gained two pounds.

AMEN.

Happy V day Jenn, Love ya.

Crystal

Okay today I think

Jenn,

First thank god that I got to talk to you today. I really wanted to. That being said I am not going to say alot here rather than fod because we got to talk!

B 1 egg and 1 slice toast and 1 slice bacon w small coffee
S no
L big salad and egg white flat bread sandwich
S no
D chicken cutlet parm (sauce and cheese) yummy but a little bad, two pieces of that and a potato, and big portion of salad.

I am hungry now and I was able to go to sleep last night without eating but i think that i will want to have something tonight. I am thinking tonight is a toast and tea night. I will only make one piece and it will be diet bread so I think that will be not to bad. Tommorrow I am going to be running around like mad because it is Darren's chucky cheese party. It is going to be wild! Wish me luck.

Anyway I am sorry that I am not going to say to much about me but the crap that I watch on friday is on. You know I might be back here ! :)

I hope that Caleb is doing well and that his little head is the right color now that he is not in the artic weather in micky D's. STOP scaring you mama boy!

Love ya,

Crystal

Hey is Jeff still with us? If he got lost get him on board again because it is good for both of you when you are working as a team!!!

HAH TODAY SUCKED ASS

Crystal,

Sounds like you did well today....way to go girl...no wonder your pants are falling off of you! Keep up the good work, we WILL find time to talk tomorrow even if you have to rush out of the house away from John. I am really really proud of you for staying away from temptation.

Today here is the shit I ate:

B-1 VERY large pancake (about 5in in diameter) no syrup 2 sausage patties
S-NOPE
L-Tuna Sub sandwich from subway on 6 inch italian cheese bread with lettuce, tomato, pickle and black olives
S-NOPE
D-YUP went to McDonalds so the kids could play. Ate a Angus swiss mushroom burger 1/2 my fries and 4 sips of Dr. Pepper and threw the rest away

So as you can see, I sucked ass today. Well not literaly. But still.

I have decided that since I have some money I am going to try the sparkpeople diet, but it seems like so much food. I don't know if I will be able to eat it all. I may save some of the parts of the meal for a snack. We'll have to see how I do. If this doesn't work then I am going vegan!

My back has been KILLING me for the last 2 days. Jeff rubbed some Icy Hot on it and it has loosened up a bit.

Okay so here is my psychotic thinkng...

I was surfing the web the other day and off of Kayleighs website I found the link for a little girl named Cora. Well long story short she was diagnosed with cancer maybe around Christmas and passed away the other day. Before she was diagnosed she had bruises show up under her yes that her parents didn't know how she got them...turns out she had a tumor by her kidney. Well, tonight, Caleb looked like his forhead and 1/2 his head to his soft spot was discolored almost like a bruise. So I of course freaked out because I thought for sure that he fell and hit his head and no one wanted to tell me. Well, he didn't fall. Then all of a sudden his head looked normal and then again tonight it looked discolored....so I freaked out even more and I began panicking that my kid has some type of blood disorder or cancer. So now I am scared to death.

Oh Geez. What am I going to do with myself? I know keep my happy butt off of disturbing and very sad websites. What do you think? I really hope that I am just being crazy.

So we went to McDonalds tonight, I did it as a surprise to the kids because we never go in and let them play. The weather was pretty decent for the most part and they had lots of fun. Could I have eaten a salad...of course, did I....nope, because I'm weak. I have to get consistent with what I do. I have no consistency. Shit. Oh well practice makes perfect. Right?

I don't care what I have to do tomorrow but I am going to go walk or something. Oh, I found a local womens only gym that is 24 hours operational and you get a key to the building and you go in and out as you please. It has circuit training like Curves, but it also has treadmills, bikes and free weights. So I think I am going to indulge and get a membership, it is like $35 a month for 6 month contract. I deserve it. Besides I am really hoping that I go to days come March for work. Besides it will allow me to mix up my workouts throughout the week and keep my body guessing!

Okay chickie I guess that is all for tonight. Pray for my little Caleb, I know I'm probably being crazy, but just humor me! Also say a prayer for me, I have a mountain of housework to do while I am off, so pray that I have the energy to do it!

Talk to you tomorrow!

Love ya,
Jenn

I guess it was an okay day

I guess that today was an okay day. I ate okay and of course did not exercise. I tried a little though. I took the kids to the park and we got out for less than ten minutes. It was just too cold. I was no too pleased and gab was not having it so we skipped back to the car and left!

This is what I had

B two slices low fat toast and an egg with two sausage and tea
S no
L two small chicken sandwich w ketchup, 280 calories each and a big bowlof salad mix with low fat dressing
S no
D chicken sub at subway yup a foot long yummy but bad.... no cheese.
S I made toast but I DID NOT EAT IT. I just looked at it and i was like I dont really want this so I did not have it. I did however drink a cup of tea with one sugar and FF milk.

So I guess that I did good. What do you think? I hope that you feel like you did okay and I know that you called before. I was in the tub with the baby and so I could not get to the phone and then John was home and I had darren doing his home work and you know the stress of the evening activities so as a result we did not get to talk again. I think that it is really getting to me. I know that it is not your fault or mine. But the simple fact that we have not been talking all that much I think has me in a fog. I am having those wierd light headed feelings that I get when I am really depressed. BLAH. I also almost ate a muffin tonight FYI but I did not! Of course it is only 9 and what I have to do is go to sleep. I hope that you are able to get some sleep tonight and I have no idea what you are doing tommorrow but maybe you have off and we can talk!!!! : )

I was able to talk to my sister today and that was nice. She wants to come home of course but I hope she sticks it out! I am thinking that when she gets back the weather will be nice and come hell or high water Gab will be in the crib so I am hoping that we will be able to get out and get exercise and go to gym at night! I cannot wait to get outside in the gentle weather...Not bitter cold.

Okay girl thanks for having simpathy for me to ramble on and on on our blog. Thank you. I miss you.

Talk to you soon.

Crystal

1/2 off

Okay,

First Crystal, you are not hijacking the blog and putting nonsense on it. You have NO connection to anyone else and you weren't able to talk today, so it is perfectly fine. Anytime you need to hijack the blog DO IT! Besides I am still planning on redoing the blog as soon as I have a freaking minute to myself...okay more than a minute! :)

I hear you about the thing with the other people driving her around. I feel your sentiments. I have had a hard time getting used to Jeff driving the kids around, and I feel uncomfortable with anyone else as well. Especially if Donna is on all this medication it just would not be good. And isn't Judy older? That makes her reflexes slower. So you have every right to not want to put her in other people's cars.

About Caleb not being attached to one parent's hip or another, it does make it easier. I know it does. I wish that you had most of what I have, you would be so happy, I know you would. Maybe one day you will finally be free of your prison. My one wish for you right now, this instance, is for you to be able to spread your wings and fly free.

You didnt' do too bad today with your eating, maybe a little much, BUT GREAT JOB on turning down all the naughty things at dinner! You're doing it girl!

This is my day:

B-scrambled egg pita pocket with tomatoes, green onions, and bell peppers topped with mozzarela cheese oh and 1/2 an apple
S-Italian Roast Beef and a cheese stick
And here it goes down hill!
L-Steak and portabello fajitas from Chilis, with 2 tortillas slight sour cream and cheese and 4 of Jeffs French fries...oh and like 5 boneless buffalo wings
S-none
D-3/4 of a foot long chicken bacon and ranch with lettuce, tomato, pickle, black olives, banana peppers, and cucumbers and light ranch dressing

I have drinken probably about 2L of water today and am currently working on a 15oz bottle of cranberry juice...oh and I had a doubleshot from starbucks.

I did not get any exercising done today because I got my school check in and decided that since it is our anniversary I was going to go spend some time with my husband. Tomorrow I won't get anything done as well because I am working from 7a-3p. So I probably won't get to workout.

Crystal, you are right that I was doing better with the meal planning than on my own. I guess I felt a commitment. I got lazy I will admit, it is hard to find the time on the weekends to sit down and do it. But I HAVE to. And I will do one this weekend.

So on Saturday I am planning on taking Autumn out to do whatever she wants, just mommy and Autumn time. And then I think at night Jeff and I are going to do something to celebrate Valentines day. WOOHOO!!!

I have been in a better mood today..no doubt because I have a couple of dollars to my name. I went to Wal-Mart looking for an anniversary gift for Jeff and didn't find one but I did find Autumn some really cute summer outfits. I can't wait to get her some flip flops and sandals to go with them...she will look adorable!

Okay, my boss just pulled into her parking space so I am going to get off. I will hopefully talk to you tomrrow night.

Love ya girlie,

Miss ya!

Jenn

me...being weird

Okay I am back. i know that I was just here but i am back. I wanted to tell you that i am offically disgusted. I went on Craiglist and I was browsing around in something called rant and raves. All I can say is that Craiglist is a pig pen. Period. Blah. This is what happens when you are sitting at home alone and your only connection to the real world is the computer. lol.

I am reading a book about sleep training. I am going to take the Damn crib apart myself this weekend and then I am going to start the sleep training asap. I have Dark circles because Gab slept bad last night it needs to be done.

The way that I am going to do it is that I am going to use my own cry it out ideas and mix them up with things that we have talked about and some other stuff. I am going to start by getting gab used to being in her crib with just a book and a favorite toy. But she does not really have one....So we will work on that. But then I am going to let her play in there while I do things little things that take me a few minutes at a time and then longer. I am just going to start by getting her used to being alone.

Oh god she was so afraid of the waiter tonight. Each and every time that he walked by she tried to jump out of her high chair and on to me. she was so worried about him. The thing was I was the only person that she would reach to. Even when she was at The table with donna, we sat in booths aside each other, and she would turn all the way around and try to climb back wards to get me. Anyway my point is that it is really a good thing that Caleb is not only attached at the hip to one parent but two. This helps you two out in the long run. Because you can have help. I not so much.

Okay...Delimma Donna wants to bye a car seat for her car and take Gab out and about with her. I am not comfortable with the idea at all. I really do not want her in the car with anyone nor do I want donna taking her out. Then at dinner she told Judy that she needs to get a car seat for her car...tOo. Why? Why do these people think that driving around with my kid is something that they can do. I am not wanting this but I do not want to hurt feelings either. I do love them both and they love me and I know they would keep gab safe. But that is not the point. Judy was not really saying anything so I am not worried about her but Donna was the one that was like I am going to get a carseat. I feel like Donna is on a lot of medication and I do not want Gab in the car with her because God forbid. I dont even like her driving Darren home from her home and she lives FIVE minutes away and bird is a big boy....I know that he is my baby too. But you know I feel like I cant stand the idea of gab in the car. THE IDEA. I dont like it when darren takes the five minute ride but the IDEA of my baby...... Jenn, My mom barely drove darren around. I just dont like my kids in other peoples car.

What do you think?

Okay enough highjacking our blog for nonsense.

I love ya,
Crystal

all about what I did not have....

Okay, So with the diet I think that I did okay today. I did not ecercise of course. But this is what I ate

B banana and flat bread egg white sandwich and coffee
s no
L grilled chicken sandwich and potato at wendys with a water
S no
D chicken terakyi and a sweet potato, a few of darrens fries with ketchup and Jello with a diet coke and a water
S small bowl cereal with FF milk

Okay and now that I look at it, Not all that great but whatever. Okay the reason that I titled this as I did is the following,,,,, We went out to dinner, Me Judy Darren and Gab and donna and her Daughter brittany. I did not have....BREAD and butter, Soup, or FATTENING dessert. Rather I skipped the bread the butter and had jello. NOT a huge fan of jello but it did the job. And you know what I feel good about what I had and I was not over full when we were leaving. I know I could have eaten WAY more so that feels good.

Okay, I am feeling bad that we have not been able to talk at all or that much the last few days. I am sorry and I hope that it is going really good for you at work tonight.

I will talk to you tommorrow I hope!

Love ya

C

lol Fanastic day,,

Okay. I am laughing. Today sucked.

Food was okay and I will tell you about that in a sec. But I am just losing my mind! I am so lonely and I cried to John about it today and I hate when I do that. I walk around ignoring him and being so empty towards him most days but there are days that I want to cry PLEASE LOVE MEEEEE!!!! I want to be loved! And you know what today was one of those days. And as a result I am miserable and alone and I did not get to talk to you because I was to busy melting down.

Sorry.

Sigh.....

Anyway. About you. I think that it is great that you have not had a soda today and if there was anything that I would like to do that would be to see you give it up or get it down to one a day. I think that you can do it for sure and you sure are drinking enough!

I know that you are struggling with the food. I have noticed that you are skipping alot of meals and then you are having a harder time keeping the other meals the way that you want them to be. I would say that you are better off moving back to the method that you were using and get the meals in so that it can be more balanced. YOu can do it! I also think that you need to be able to say that you had a bad day so what???? You can pick it up tommorrow or right now for that matter and make better choices! I know you can do it because I have read about you doing it! FOr days and days girl! Also it seems like the meal plan really helped you. Are you doing that still? Also how about those walks with you and your hubby!

I am really sorry that Caleb has got you down and all the other troubles that you are facing. I know that it is hard to deal with what he is doing to you but he loves you sooooo very much! And if he knew that he was hurting his mama by wanting his daddy then he would not do that! I think that it is probally like you said because Jeff seems to get up with Caleb more and he probally has lots of private cuddly moments with him at those times. Maybe you guys can take turns? Maybe not like you do the 1 I will do the 4am but more like you do monday and I will do tuesday etc etc. Just a thought. And I do think that it is great that you guys are parenting as a team and dont want you to spread yourself thin just because I do and you think that might work....Believe me...Rested mommys and daddys are better than one wacky over tired parent.

Okay so on to the food that I ate

B slice of toast w tinney butter and two sausage and tea
S craisins
L sub way foot long I know!!! And it was veggie no cheese so whatever......lol
S No
D three slices french toast and two sausage. I was craving something sweet. I dont fry my french toast just so you know....That is what the italians do!
S A red potato with salt and pepper....dont ask and blueberries.

I was craving the potato too! LOL and I AM NOT PREGNANT!!!! LOL. Just hungry.

Okay girlie that is it. Good for you for working out! I am proud of you and sorry that we did not get to talk. I know that you needed to but I could not get it together enough to call you.

Also my weight for today was 173.4. So that is good.

Love ya

Crystal

OFF AGAIN

Okay,

I fell off the freaking wagon again, no doubt because of my mood lately. I got to work and decided that I wanted (not needed) a chocolate bar, so I ate Twix...additional 280 EMPTY calories. Then my co-worker offered me 1 chicken enchilada with green chilis....another probably 300 plus calories. Before I left the house I ate a cheese stick, because it tore open and I didn't want to throw it away and it no doubt would have been bad by the time I got here to work.

D-chili with 5 crackers (thats a serving size)
S-Raisins

Oh, I have drinken quite a bit of water today so that is still a good thing. I haven't had a soda today...WOOHOO!!!!

Oh, well there is always tomorrow. I think that I am eating like this because I haven't been eating breakfast, in addition to my mood. I gt up some days and still don't eat, so when my body feels food coming in it is starved and doesn't stop until it is satisfied. So, to rectify that problem I have to eat something in the morning. Whether it just be 1/2 a bagel or a piece of bread with peanut butter on it. I think that will, so that is my experiment for now.

Crystal, I hope you had a fantastic day, I will talk to you soon.

Jenn

BLAH

Okay,

So yesterday didn't go too well. Usually one of our Community Service Officers will go get us food and for whatever reason, she decided she wasn't going to yesterday. So I had to order food.

Yesterday:

B-None
S-None
L-Cereal with 1/2 bagel
S-None
D-Dominos baked chicken and ranch sandwich with a bag of Nacho Cheese Chips...oh and 3/4 of a Dr. Pepper.

I know, I know, you don't have to tell me about the Dr. Pepper. I'm trying...honestly.

So far today:

B-None
S-None
L-Pita Pouch with Italian Roast Beef Deli Meat, shredded mozarella cheese and spicy brown mustard and a 100 Calorie, FF Chocolate snack pudding.

I think my only option for dinner today is going to be Jeff's delicious Chili. For snacks I will take some Raisins and maybe one other thing, depending what I can find in the house that isn't too bad.

On a positive note I drank almost 3L of water in 2 days.

I haven't been in the best of moods for the last couple of days. Of course I can't pinpoint anything, but I think it may have something to do with my grandmother, my sister, and of course the evil of all human beings, finances. I really want to get out of this slump and just go back to how I was feeling a couple of weeks ago, I was actually happy.

I know for sure the one thing that is bothering is the fact that Caleb wants nothing to do with me. Last night I was trying to get him to go down and the minute he saw Jeff he lunged for Jeff and started to cry because I was holding him. I KNOW that it is because I don't get up with him in the middle of the night so he sees who cares more about him. This morning I was so exhausted that when he got up at 645 I couldn't stay up I had Jeff call the sitter and have her come get him, because physically I couldn't stay up. But I guess like you Crystal I should just suck it up and stay up and do what I have too. I wonder also, if Caleb doens't want anything to do with me is because I have gotten stern with him on more than one occassion about pulling my hair, hitting me, or pulling at my necklace. He probably thinks I hate him. But what am I supposed to do? He needs to learn that certain things are not good behavior. I don't know...BLAH, BLAH, BLAH right?

Okay, that is enough for me. I will check in on here later to see how you did.

I'm really glad for you Crystal, that your pants are starting to fall off...WAY TO GO! You're obviously doing something right!

Jenn

Back on the wagon with my legs dangling off

So I am back on the wagon but I am not going to say that I am doing sooooo wonderful. Just okay I guess. I ate dinner tonight and I was not satisfied. I think that it was because my body had a taste of yummy food and over endulging yesterday and now that is what I want to do.

B a slice of toast two sausage a hashbrown and tea
S pretzals
L smart one and banana
S pretzals
D egg whites and salsa and a bagel with cream cheese
S two slices toast w a teaspoon PB and FF milk and a few cranberries

So looking at the day I think that I did fine but there is that night time comfort snack that I am still not letting go of that I really need to. Just to know that I could do so much better if I knocked that off of each day. That being said people are starting to notice both Judy and Donna this week have commented on me looking good. So I know that it is working. My size 14 jeans are Falling off of me. They really are but the thing is that I am not ready to go out and get new pants. My shirts are not any looser I dont think. So I am not ready for shopping at all. Whatever. I will be that is if I stop eating snacks at night.

Okay girl I hope that work is going good. I am watching the rest of the bachelor and then I am out for the count.

GN crystal

Off the wagon and praying

Hey Jenn,,,

I am off the wagon for the day but it could be worse I am telling you! Any way I am prayng that I get on the scale tommorrow and did not gain weight because that would suck.

B egg whites and salsa and sausage
S animal crackers, cranberries and coffee
L pot roast, potatos and carrots, little gravey, cheesey broccoli rice, tomato salad w vinger dressing
S Cake oH BOY about 500 calories
D more left over rice

Okay that is what I ate and I feel really bad about it. I know that it was not the kinda of over eating that you cannot breath but it makes me feel bad. The cake was bad but the worse thing I thing was rhe rice.....Arg,

Okay you I love ya and I will talk to you soon. I hope you have a decent night at work and that it goes fast.

crystal

So Long

So it has been a while since I have posted on here, so I have some catching up to do.

I ate horrible while in El Paso. I ate at Whataburger...which is probably around 1000 empty calories, but God was it good. I also ate a small bit of Baked Macaroni and Cheese and some cream of wheat. But it was very small amounts.

Today:

B-None
S-None
L-bagel with egg and cheese and 1/2 a container of LF yogurt
S-Peaches
D-Smart One chicken picatta and Smart One cookie dough snack

The good thing is that the Smart Ones are actually not too bad because they work hand in hand with the Weight Watchers program.

Okay so it has actually been busy already at work and I have only been here about 35 minutes or so. So, I am going to cut this short and I will post on here hopefully tomorrow sometime.

Jenn

I miss you girl!

Hey Jenn!

I know that I was MIA for you last night and today. But I was half asleep last night when I heard you talking about being in El paso okay, SO I did not get out of bed.... and then today I was at my grams all day because we had Darrens surprise family party. It was very small but it went well. I ate no cake or chips. But I did have three slices of pizza with Just sauce. I think that was not all that bad.

B egg whites and salsa one slice toast and sausage
S no
L three slices pizza just sauce
S no
D chicken soup and another small slice of pizza

WAY to much pizza! But I think that I will be okay because I did not work out today but I was really active so that will help balance some of the food out. I hope that you are able to spend lots of time with your gram without your mom making you too stressed and the baby being good and your gram enjoying you two. I am not sure where you are staying.... At your moms or what.

I want to talk to you tonight..I just got gab to sleep and I am going to go down there and get my cell and text you. I have nothing important to talk about but I missed yah! I also missed my sisters call and that made me feel bad. Because She has to pay to call me and I was not here to get it. I also cannot see what it was about because she is asleep now... Okay girl my legs are killing me I am going to look at Kayleighs page and then I am going to bed!!!

NIght night kiddo

Crystal

Tough day

Crystal,

You definietley did better than I today.

B-none
S-non
L-Roadrunner (contains roast beef, swiss cheese, grilled onion, and green chilis on a toasted kaiser roll) and homefried potatoes.
S-none
D-Coney from Sonic and chili cheese fries and a cherry limeade

So you can see that I did not eat very well today...there is always tomorrow and the weekend.

I will have to get back into working out after I start feeling better.

I have been really really busy today...not with anything exceptional or big, just a lot of small things. Crazy crazy day.

Anyways we have to go get Jeff's car tomorrow from Roswell which is 76 miles from Carlsbad at about 1 1/2 hours away. So Crystal have your phone charged because on the way back I will be talking to ya!!! Gives us plenty of time to bitch and complain! HA :)

I will talk to ya tomorrow!

Jenn

So I guess it was okay

Hey lady

I think that I did okay today. This is what I ate

B egg whites scrabbled with salsa
L smart one with peas added
S almonds about 10
D bean and pasta soup that I make and you think is strange lol
S two slices toast w a little peanut butter and a haft banana and a few cranberries

So as you can see I did not eat a ton but I also did not eat on a strict diet either. We will see what happens. I feel like I am not going to lose a thing at all this week. Like I said I think that I am done losing without working out and I really need to find a way to get the exercise in. Like you said at least a half hour a day. ARgg.. Why cant it get warm. I would go for a walk each and everyday. I sware!!!

I hope that work is going well for you and that you are not to bogged down with alot of weird stuff going on and crazy 911 calls. I also hope that you got something half decent to eat for dinner and for all the other meals that happen while you are there.

Argg I got to work out and I am dreading it. I wish that I could just get myself to the dumb gym. I watched the stupid special about tree man tonight and I am telling you it freaked me out. That poor guy and to think that the HPV virus is what is causing the child that I work with to not be able to talk either and that is so sad.

Jenn sometimes I think that it would be so great for me and you to go spend one week at the biggest loser! Your hubby can come too! :) but no horse play we would have to work like crazy! Because I sware with what they can do to people that weigh 400 pounds they could really do something good for us! OH YEAH!!! Jillian scares me! lol......Get on you tube and down load bob from biggest loser freaking out. Because a few weeks back he went nuts and no he is a little scarey to to be honest.

Okay Lady Jane I think that this is about all I can do. I will talk to you tommorrow. Have a good rest of the night!

OUT : )

last night

I did okay most of the day yesterday but then at night I was so hungry and ordered a pizza and by the time that it got here I ate I think 5 pieces. Yeah it was really bad and I should not have but at least there was no cheese and therefor not as bad as it could have been. I also skipped two snacks that I most often have and I think that is the only reason that I am not weighing in at a higher weight than 175.8. Now I am going to try not to tell my weight again until tues. THat has been the weigh in day. But I think that I am at the point where I am not going to lose any more weight unless I am working out. We will see. Because it is like zero out and windy as hell so I am not going to be able to get out of this house. no excuse I know that you are working out in the comfort of your own home and I am singing the blues.Oh well.

My sister and I just got off the skpye thing and she is not all that happy. She is not getting along with this guy that she is at school with and that makes me really sad. I hope that she can stick it out some how.

Okay so I missed the food journal for yesterday but you have an idea. I did bad. I will talk to you about today later on. Because I am going to have to get my ass in gear and go get bird. I will talk to you then and I hope that your day is going well so far and I know you have so much more to go.

Love ya
Crystal

Happier

Okay,

So the run down of my doctors appt went well and the kids are ok. Codey does have an ear infection so he is now on antibiotics and the baby is doing ok. Doc seems to think that he is at the end of his virus, hence the fever and the rash. My doc said that my blood work and ultrasound came back fine. My x-rays showed that my back has arthritis and muscle spasms. HMMMM.....Getting old!!!! Maybe I can slow things down by losing weight! Oh and I am on antibiotics for an ear infection and the beginning of a throat irritation which means I have a virus of some sort. And my gallbaldder is ok, she thinks it may be some sort of acid problem so she put me on an acid reducer.

OH OH OH OH.....From the time I last went to the doc to today I've lost 7 lbs....WOOOHOOOO!!! Small accomplishment but still an accomplishment. The doc was very happy with the weight I have lost. She told me to keep up the good job!

So today, I didn't get to eat breakfast or my first snack, but when I went to Denny's with my fantastic hubby, I had the club sandwich and fries, and I probably could have done without the fries, but oh well. I have had 1/2 a banana and I have 2 cheese sticks for snack and then I will probably ask someone to go get me a salad from somwhere for dinner.

Oh, my doc said to alternate the cardio that is done. One day maybe walk, then ride a bike and then maybe dance around or something, but no less than 30 minutes a day. On alternating days along with cardio, there should be strength training. She says the reason for this is because our bodies get used to certain repetitive workouts and so to keep the body guessing and responding we should alternate the cardio. Oh and no less than 1 liter of water per day.

I have had a hard time emotionally today. I found out my grandmother fell again today and that my mom is thinking about putting her in a nursing home because she doesn't want her to get hurt anymore. That just breaks my heart. Today everything came to a head for me. I am unbelievably upset that I am not going to be by my sister a couple days after she has Angelina. I hate that. But my wonderful husband has said that I can go to El Paso this weekend and then next weekend or sometime I can go see my sister. So that is going to be nice, but hard. I don't want to see my grandmother the way she is...it kills me internally.

Okay I guess that is it...I will check in later on ya.

Love ya

I dont know girl

Okay, This morning I got up and I weigh 175.8 again. So I am not sure if I really lost weight this week or of it was a mistake. I dont know. The only reason why I feel like I am losing and losing slow is because my body was so used to eating at night and now I am not. The other thing that I feel like I am doing that you do not always get to do is sleeping! i know that this helps me to lose weight and I think that this is probally the down fall to your job. Like the jokes that you were telling me yesterday. You really are seated alot during the shift and you are not able to sleep like a normal person. That is the problem I think. I do not know what you could do to help that. BUT do not give up! You are really doing a great job and making changes and that is what is important and I feel like you really need to keep going. I hope that your body responds soon that you get some pay off and feel better about it all. You have been dieting longer than me too! So maybe you are at one of those plateus that everyone talks about and hates! I am here for you either way.

Only B so far.

B two lowfat pancakes, a hash brown and two sausage....Not all that good....Coffee too. But I cut out the sugar in it all together! So that is something. I should not have had the hashbrown but oh well. My gab loved it too! You should see her eat big girl food!!! WOW!

Okay I will talk to you later and I hope that you have the best day that you can in between Dr visits.

OUTTRO

Much Better

Crystal,

I am glad to hear that you are still losing weight that is fantastic. Keep up the good work. I don't know how you're doing it, after I started working out I put on 1.5 lbs so I am now back up to 235. To tell you the truth today I honestly felt like I should just give up and throw in the towel. I am working so hard and nothing is paying off. I know the Chinese food didn't help last night but I can't attribute that whole weight gain to just that meal.

I did much better today:

B-None
S-None
L- 6 in roast beef sub with pepper jack cheese, lettuce, tomato, black olive and banana peppers and lite manyonnaise
S-LF yogurt boston creme pie only 1/2 of a container
D-Rotisserie Chicken Salad and Fruit

See not too bad. But I bet that it will not help me with anything. I know I am not feeling too well to my stomach right now and yet I am trying to choke down a liter of water.

BLAH!

Talk to you tomorrow hopefully. Caleb and Codey have an appt at 945 and then mine is at 115 in the afternoon so we shall see.

Jenn

The chinese is a killer

Yup Jenn, I know what it is like to have a pile of chinese food in front of you and when it is all gone wonder where the hell it all went. The utter in disgust when you realize that you just ate that mountain of food. Huh.....Chinese food is very tricky. But you will get back on the mission tommorrow and you will remember to keep the chinese food for special days.....You know it is okay to eat alot sometimes. You have to cut yourself some room in this.

Today I think that I did okay for the most part. I did eat a snack at night but I am not feeling well and I wanted to take a motrin so I had to eat.

B low fat pancakes, two sausage, half of a hashbrown w ketchup coffee no sugar just FF milk
S almonds
L smart one and some corn plus a banana
S no
D a bologna and cheese sandwich and tomato soup with pastina in it
S few graham crackers, crasins, and cup of tea with one sugar and FF milk

So as you can see I did okay.

I weighed myself today and I weigh 175.0. So I am finally at the model's mark and I hope that I can be smaller than her soon and have to adjust it. I did weigh 174.2 on Sat and then I do not know what happened. I was back at 175.8 on sun and mon and today at the 175.0. Either way I am still going down and that is what I want. I do not really care that it is really slow. They say that it being really slow is the best way anyway.

Okay, I am going to go watch tv. Sorry that I missed you when you called before. I went to go get the bologna to make my sandwich for some reason I really wanted it and I needed to go out into the snow to get it! I will be taking it for lunch tommorrow! Talk to you then

Love ya

C

BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD ETC......

Okay,

So I told you I was going to splurge on Chinese food and oh did I.

This is what I ate today....

B-bagel and egg sandwich and 1/2 a lf yogurt
S-none
L-1/2 chicken breast
S-none
D-Chinese food, Chinese food, and more chinese food

I don't even want to guess how much I ate, but I am so full and disgusted right now it is pathetic. I am going to do more cardio tomorrow AND strength training, but I am really going to have to work it really hard.

I am telling you that with as gross I feel right now I AM NOT going to eat like that again. I guess because I have been eating so well I can't handle this type of food or the amount of food anymore.

I am ashamed.

Jenn

Happy Groundhog day....Ironic

Hello! I am wishing all my fans a happy Ground hog day,.....lol. I watched the movie tonight too! And the ground hog saw his shadow and we will have six more weeks of winter. Boo.

LOL.

Okay this is what I ate today and I think I did okay.

B low fat pancakes and sausage coffee
S almonds
L smart one and a banana
S no
D two piece lasansa or one big one hehe and salad

So as you can see I did okay. Of course we know that Lasana is all about the cheese!!! SO it was really good but It was sinful! I did not get any exercise per say ...I did 125 situps though so that is something!

Sorry that I do not have alot to say but that is about it for me today. Tommorrow I think it is going to be a snow day maybe. So I hope to have time to do my work out video.

I hope work is going good for you Jenn! Talk to you tommorrow.

C

Today

HNey Girl! I am so proud of you! And of your hubby! You guys are diving right in and i think that working as a team is so great and I am so happy that we are all doing this! It is a habit by now for sure!!! I think getting a treadmill is a great idea. If you guys can postion it somewhere where you can see the tv you guys can work out while watching! I thought that was so helpful when I used to go to a great gym that had tvs for each treadmill. I used to walk until I watched two episodes of judge judy. It was a better timer than the timer!!! So if you guys can do it I would for sure! For me that would be a great idea but the only place that we could keep it is in the basement and it is so cold and dark down there that I would not ever get down there. So I would waste my money. It was nice out today but there is still so much ice on the ground. I can go for a walk alone if I could but I also have my girl with me so I am going to have to wait a bit more. Ahh New england....

Anyway, I did okay today with my food and did not get any exercise. BUT in my defense i think that I am getting sick. It is a bit to private to post but I will tell you, Jenn if you call me tommorrow AM and we will chat. But long story short. I ate a little extra today and I think that will be okay because I think I am getting sick. Then to make it worse tonight I took a half of a small pain killer (hydro blah blah the small one broke in half) and it made my stomach hurt. So I ate a breakfast type meal at night. I know that is bad. But I wanted to help my belly. And it did not really help. Blah.

Jeff, Congrats on helping yourself and your wife. I know that she really cares about your health and wants to see you do what you can to prevent alot of the family history stuff from happening to you. I think that it is great that you are joining in. I want you to know that I value what you said and no lines where crossed. But rest assured that I am looking for that change it is just a bit harder to find then I wish it was. Jenn, However has been a godsent and I thank you for sharing her with me. So help her get healthy so that she and I may have tons of energy to paint all of new york red someday. And yup I hope to some day see the desert and take a walk along the river with all the cambells. lol.

Oh yeah and if you think you have had italian food. You have not. NOT until you come to NEW Haven Home of more pizza places and ristorantes than italy itself.

Okay so this is what I ate for today and it is all true....

B egg white flat bread from DD and small reg coffee a banana
S nope
L roasted pork, lots of peas, small amount mashed potatos ( I made dinner for lunch for my gram and I it was sopposed to be the only big meal of the day)
S about 20 almonds
D a piece of chicken parm that John made yesterday and corn and fat free chocalte pudding
S cheerios and fat free milk, a cheese stick, clemitine ( little orange sorry about the spelling)

So as you can see I ate more than I should have. And here is something esle that you should know. I weighed myself today and it was good. BUT I do this! Jenn I really do. When I do good, I over eat. It is like I want to fail. I hate it. SO I am afraid that tommorrow I will be back up. But maybe not. I did not do that bad. Usually I go way way over board. SO that is good that I did not. I guess it just feels like more because I ate no DIET food today. It was smaller portions but all reg food. You know? WHat ever I am rambling. Remember I took that pill cut me some slack and I AM NNOT A PILL POPPER for the record. LOL. I would have drank a little wine if I did not think that gab would wake up and find me loopy. So This makes me a bit less loopy and the pain has stopped for now.

Okay that is about all I have to say for tonight. OH Jenn please dont stop calling me. If I am busy sometimes then that stinks. BUT it is just timing and I really miss you when you dont call. SO please call.

Okay girlie!! LOVE YA always.

Night home skillet.

C

WHEW!

Okay, so today has been very tiring yet very rewarding for me.

This is what I have eaten today:

B-1/2 bagel with light butter, red raspberry preserve, 1/2 a cantaloupe and an egg
S-Italian Roast Beef deli meat with string cheese
L-Curried sweet potato and cauliflower soup
S-Strawberries with fruit dip
D-Chicken Marsala with Broccoli and 2oz of Parmesan cheese

This morning I did 30 minutes of pilates. That was very very hard, but I felt better afterward. I am nowhere near doing it as well as I would like to, but it is a beginning and the more I do it the better I will get. I am sore and a bit weak still in my legs, but I LOVED doing it. I have to practice with more controled movements. Tomorrow I have my full intention of doing my walk at home w/ resistance bands for 30 minutes. I am having a hard time figuring out the fitness tracker on sparkpeople, but I will tinker with it more.

Okay, I cheated today also, I had a 12 oz Dr. Pepper but it had ice so it wasn't a complete 12oz. Oh and I drank about 1/4 of a Gatorade and am working on a liter of water. I know that the Dr. Pepper wasn't good for me, but again it is something that I am going to have to gradually give up.

Jeff has done well today, although I know that he bought burgers and chips for him and the kids to eat during the superbowl so I know that will be his only downfall today. I need to make sure that he gets moving again, with me working from 3-11 he has a hard time getting in his walks. The only thing that comes to mind right now is that he would have to walk with the kids around 530 or so. He wants to get a treadmill so if we can find a way to do that he will be able to walk with the kids at home.

Crystal, I hope you had a great time with your Gram. I didn't call you because I didn't want to interrupt your time with her and the baby. You are always so busy I get leary of calling now. I hope that you had a great day with your eating. I will work on adding our meal plan to the site tomorrow sometime and then that way you can have something to motivate you to get yorus up. I hope that you can find time to workout and burn some calories. It will also help with some frustration that you are having.

I know that I haven't worked on the website yet but I was really busy over the weekend and didn't even really get on the computer. I promise I will get to it soon.

Alrighty girlie have a good evening and I will talk to you soon.

Jenn

I love Italian food!

But it is not loving me right now. Me and Jenn were bad.....we had lazagna for dinner with garlic bread and cake. Jenn had other things for dessert that I can't describe......

Sorry!