Welcome back...Not so Lonely anymore!

Hey girl! I was so happy to see that you are back. While you needed the break to take care of your family i missed you for sure! I am hoping that we can help get and keep each other on track and start eating really well again. I am sure that the monthly friend is the reason that you are feeling a bit bloated it happens to the best of us! I know that when you have stressful situations you often forget to eat and when you remember you eat bad but Jenn you know what it is no big deal. When I went through it I gained 45 pounds. Just dont do that and you are doing way better than me!

I am happy to hear that you are glad to have me caring about you. I always will. I told you if you were a guy I woul be madly in love with you! LOl Darn! Anyways you are a great friend, mother and employee and you are very important to alot of people....One of them being me! So thanks for being you.

This is what I ate today

B egg and two pieces toast
S coffee
L meatball on toast with ketchup We had no food in the house! Frozen broccoli and a few bites of gabs egg noodles. It sounds worse than it was.
D bagel with cream cheese and DD hash browns lol bad again and strawberries

So I guess I did ok. Whatever. Good for you for having such a good breakfast and I know that you had a ccandy but whatever your lunch was good too so that is a good balance,

Jenn it is so hard for me to gt used to the nails and typing. I am telling you whenI go to get them filled ifi do that is I am going to tell them to cut the suckers short as hell! I dont care. They still look nice even if they are short.


Okay i am going to look in on Kayleigh and Jenn I agree with you. It is time to let the poor baby go. she is not there any more and woulld not stay with us without intervention. Keeping her alive is just prolonging everyones pain but I cannot imagine having to make te choice. I hope that God takes over and decides when it is time for them.

Love ya!

Crystal

one for lunch.

Ok. Ruined breakfast with a twix. Have eaten a tray (small) of apples grapes and cheese. Now im working on yogurt pretzles. Having spinach mushroom pizza smart

Alone no more

Crys,

First thank you for being such a wonderful, caring person. I appreciate the fact that you think about me and just want to be sure that I am ok. I am still numb, but time heals. Right?

Secondly, you have been doing good with your food, way to go.

Third, you are alone no more. I am going to make a conscious effort to either send a quick text or jump on here in the mornings, or something, so that way we can start holding each other accountable again. I know it makes it that much easier.

I weighed in at 221.5 this morning, but I don't know if all of that is from food or if it is also because I should be having a monthly visitor sometime either today or in the next couple of days.

Breakfast: whole wheat english muffin (140 Calories) with egg whites, a slice of a tomato, and mozzarella cheese.

I of course don't know what I am doing yet for lunch, but I will probably get a salad, I don't have any other choice. Dinner is also going to be hard because I am working an 11 hour shift at work, so I go in at 2 your time and get out at 1 your time. Today is going to be tricky.

This may sound harsh, but I hope that Kayleigh doesn't endure much more. For crying out loud, the child has been through so much already, I believe it is time for her to rest. She has shown and done so much for other people, I would say she is miraculous, but she deserves rest as well. Not to mention poor Adam and Aimee.

Okay chickie, I will talk to you soon.

Love ya,
J

just the food again

today I had

B cereal with FF milk and sausage
S coffee
L turkey club ans sweet potato and claw slaw
S cheese crackers
D two pieces of pizza
S two 100 cal granola bars and strawberries

So it was an okay day for food. Talk to you more about other stuff later. Love ya

C

just food

weighing in 158.8.

down but not much whatever.

B two sausages one egg and strawberries
S coffee
L ravoli one serving
D small amount pasta and three chicken nuggets
S strawberries and a mini bagel with cream cheese

Love ya

C

here is my start

Gotta start getting my ass in gear or I am going to be a fat ass again. Blah

B bagel with cream cheese and two sausage w coffee
S no
L mac anf cheese
S granola bar
D some pasta with sauce and a meatball, salad and one piece of bread with butter
S watermelon

So as you can see I am not eating all that well but I really think that I have to get back to telling you what I am eating that is the only thing that really keeps me going. Yesterday when I woke up I had a good weight but today it was just okay. We will see what tommorrow brings. I hate to go on and on here about food knowing how you are struggling but I have to find my stride again. I also need to get out of this depression that I have been in I think ever since my car broke down and as you know that has alot more to do with then just the car. Whatever. I hope that you are doing as well as you can and I feel really bad that I cried and whined to you today about my own troubles. I am here for you though, any thing that you need through the phone that is I will do it.

I got to get out in the sun with the kids and that really felt nice. The sun feels so good for me after the cold of the winter. I cannot wait to get out and do things. I really need to get active with things with the kids that have nothing to do with food. even the park down the street has three ice cream men! There is food everywhere Jenn! Oh well.

I am really worried about you. You are being so strong that it is scaring me. Sometime it is so not good for us to lock things allinside and just be there for other people. Dont forget about the way that you feel in all this termoil andwhat you need because it is really importat that you takethe best care of you too. I am putting this right here for you to read over and over if needed, This is happening to you too and you need a friend and a shoulder to lean on in this time. I sware if I had more money or I was closer I would be there for you!!

Okay I am tired as ever and I am going to go to sleep.

Love ya!

Crystal

depressed with no right

I am very depressed but have no right to complain. I feel like I have not been there for my best gf. Jenn I hope you are okay and that if you get the chance to call me you do. I should have taken time away from the stupid wedding for you. I am so sorry about your lost and I hope to talk to you soon. I will try to get on the ball with the food and the tracking. my heart is not there right now.


Love ya,

C

Hello

Okay Crys,

I am back. I had a fantastic time in Ruidoso, but I am glad to be back with my kiddos and back at my job. My Caleb is sick right now, he has some type of stomach bug, so both openings of his body has been spewing things for 2 days now. And of course he is back in bed with us. Oh well.

I am going to try and get back on track with my eating, I put on 1.5 lbs while there, so it is time to kick my ass back in gear and as of right now I am starving and lunch is still 1 hour or so away.

Crys, I am hoping that you will be feeling better soon, it sucks to be sick, I know.

So far today:

B-Honey nut cheerios with a cheese stick
S-Cheese stick
L-planning on a salad
S-None (hopefully)
D-A 6 inch sub from subway

Okay, gotta get back to work. Talk to you tomorrow.

Love ya,
Jenn

weighing in a day late

I gained weight this week and that made me sad but then I got on here and looked at Kayleighs blog and now I think I am so stupid for being sad over nothing when that is real pain. Oh Kayleigh what A rollercoaster for this to be the end doesnt make sense. What was all the fighting for then? For what?

I weigh 160.0.

I hope to talk to soon.

Crystal

gonna be the week I gain,,,,

THis is going to be the week that I have gained weight tommorrow I know it.

B egg white flatbread and coffee
L chicken sandwich wendys and potato

Very depressed day!

Oh well. Miss you.

Crystal

my car is broke

My car is broke and I ate bad. I am so depressed and cannot wait to talk to you some time tommorrow. I miss you and good night. I will go back on my diet tommorrow and will be losing weight like crazy soon because I wont be able to afford to eat.

Love ya

Crystal

Bad days

Well Jenn. I have ate bad for the last two days and I am not even going to go into what I have had. Sorry for the secrets but I have told you enough about it for you to know that it is bad. in my defense we have no fresh food in the house and that is really a big issue.

I am having the virus again. It ddoesnt happen when I am signed in as a guess. It is so weird. i have to go back and re sign in but for now....

I am going to try d resses on for laurens wedding tommorrow my cousin. I am alway the oubridesman never the bride. Ok....The computer is being dumb...Love you and when I have my cell in the house I am adding it to the blog.

Love ya!

Crystal

Okay had a KFC bowl and a Dr. Pepper. Not doing well today feel bloated and disgusted.

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Crazy

Okay Crys so I know I have been MIA but you know how crazy things have been for me.

None the less...yesterday

B-English Muffin and mixed fruit
L-Arbys Sandwich w/potato cakes
D-Burger King whopper w/onion rings

NOT GOOD! BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD :(

Oh well today is another day and I can try again.

I can now post from my phone so maybe I can be on here more.

I hope Gab is doing ok, poor girl. Hope your doing ok as well. Talk to you soon.

Love ya,
Jenn

yup I ate a cinniamin raisin bagel from DD with cream cheese at 10. BAD but I have to tell you......about it. It was good but I felt like crap about it the second I was done eating it.

Oh well tommorrow is another day!

C

Just the food

I am in a weird mood. I went to bed with the baby at 7:45 and when I woke up at 9 I got in a bad mood. I told you I cannot take naps. Not good. Anyway.....

What I ate

B pancakes and sauage
S almonds
L veggies and scrabbled egg
S egg whites
D sub with some meatballs

That is what I had but i cannot promise that I wont eat something tonight because I am hungry and I asked for John to go get me a bagel. but then I dont know if I will have it or not. What ever we will see....

Okay girlie I love you!

Crystal

here again

Okay just another second to type here because I jumped off before. I was looking at my BMI and I am offically in the Overweight catergory! Woo hoo not obese any more.

K love ya!

Crystal

So I think it was okay for the most part

Well first let me tell you that I miss you here....

Next congrats on the props the Dr gave you about losing the 22 pounds since the last visit. You are doing it! It is just slow so you get discouraged but the slow weight lose is the best kind because it lasts!

Okay this is what I ate

b egg whites and melon
L mcdonalds chicken sandwich and small fry
D melon and mac and cheese
S one pop tart and milk.

K gabs up! Love ya!

Crystal

weighing in...

159.2 (breaths sign of relief) easter was tough but i was tougher!!!

Crystal

okay....

Hey,

This is what I ate

B egg white flatbread sandwich
S coffee
L turkey wrap and fuit
S no
d steak sandwich with veggies 6 inch....


This is what I ate and I am on the phone with you so I am not going to go on and on.....

C

Too much

I ate bad. It was Easter and I ate bad really bad and I will cry tommorrow. I am not even gotta share. I am bad..


jenn I love you and I am so sorry that you are suffering out there now. I wish I could give you a hug.

I ll hug you through the phone...

C

Happy good friday

As you know I am tired but you are the only one that has the right to complain.

Well this is what I ate today

B egg whites and peppers
L pepper sandwich and pear
d grilled cheese sandwich and veggies
S raisin bread and butter and a pear

Oh well the night snack did not have to happen but it did. BOO!

Okay!

C

FEELING GOOD

I feel good today. I think my relationship is really over and I feel good. Speaks loud huh?

Talk to you later about the fasting and all that. I hope Jeff is not eating meat today!!! lol. CATHOLIC GUILT!!!

okay I guess

Hello u...

I guess today was okay but I ate a snack at night that was not all that good but like you said there is tommorrow. so I hope tommorrow is a little better.

B egg whites with peppers
L egg whites with veggies and toast and a few home fries
S banana and a few almonds
D serving of pasta with sauce and cheese
S strawberries and raisin toast with BUTTER the bad part!

Okay so that is what I ate today and Gab has gotten up about ten times in the last twenty minutes so I am gonna lay down now.

Love ya!

Crystal

Inventory

Okay so today this is my food inventory:

B-Whole Wheat english muffin with butter and 1/2 a 16oz coffee
S-Strawberries
L-Burrito
S-34 grapes
D-Fish

Okay, so that is my food plan for today and I am planning on going to the gym. I am planning on doing the treadmill and lifting some weights. Yesterday I did the circuit for 30 minutes and the treadmill for 21 and I burned over 500 calories. WOOHOO!!!

I am tired today, I could really use some sleep. Oh, speaking of sleep Caleb slept in his bed ALL NIGHT! That is awesome.

Hope you have a fantastic day with the kids.

Love ya bunches
Jenn

Just the food....

Okay homey...

This is what I ate

B pancakes and sausage
S coffee
L turkey wrap
S chocolate raisins
D chicken, rice and corn
S pear and strawberries

THat was the day in the nut shell.

love ya!

Crystal

Try

Crys,

Thank you for the words of encouragement, it means a lot to me. I am going to keep trying, that is all I can do. I got on the scale this morning and it is up 2.5 lbs. I'm not surprised, but disappointed, in myself.

So today is a new day and here is my food inventory:

B-2 pieces of 45 calorie whole wheat bread with jam
S-grapes (10)
L-Tuna with a serving of tortilla chips and kiwi
S-Carrots and Hummus
D-Not sure yet

And I did get to the gym yesterday and did 30 minutes on the treadmill and burned 206 calories. Today I am going again and I plan on doing the circuit for 3 rounds and then hitting the treadmill some more. I am hoping that I am not too exhausted to do it. Also last night, I gave the puppy a bath and I washed my car and cleaned it out. So not a whole lot more exercise, but a little bit.

Crys I am so happy for you that you are dropping weight like crazy. Awesome! And way to go with the swimming, that is awesome. I think I am going to tell Jeff to get that above ground pool, so I can do water aerobics. I think that would be a lot of fun.

So let me know what you think ok sweetie. Oh FYI, I am not off until NEXT WEDNESDAY! Yeah I know crazy, but hey I need the money.

Talk to you soon.

J

weighing in....

Glad to say that I am weighing in at 160.4! I am down 2.2 pounds this week! I am so happy because there were some day within the last 10 or so that I really went haywire and I was so worried that I was not gonna get it together but some how some way I did. I have to say the best thing that I have done is gotten the veggies in the house and cut up to be avaible whenever. I also have veggies with almost each and every meal and whatever I have for a snack I try to make it a fruit. I think that if you do the same Jenn it might help you when you are walking out the door. I know it is really hard to gather what you need as you are leaving but it is a pain to make it every day. But What if you go ahead and make the meals like every three days. You can have a diet dinner or something for the main thing to eat ( I hiope you have a mirco wave at work) and then have pre bagged veggies and fruits and healthy choices to put on the side and bring to work with you. I think that it might help. I know that when darren tells me in the morning that he needs a bagged lucnh I cringe. DARN it just takes the extra few minutes but it is a pain. So I know it is all easier said then done. And I dont have to deal with it at all because I just come home at lunch time and can make something you cant so I know it is all that much harder.

Well You will be proud to know that I got AN HOUR of swimming in tonight!!! I am sure that was a bunch of calories and it felt great! I could go every night if I had someone to watch gab all the time! I sware! As she gets older I am gonna find A way to get there at least one more night a week! I am trying to get Darren to sign up for classes. It is great exercise for him. He was swimming with no swim aides in ten feet deep water today. TEN FEET DEEP! I am so proud of him! He swam the length of the pool about ten times and I was doing the same thing and it was really hard work! The little guy was qworking his tail off! I am also signing gab up for swim lessons. It is only 50.00 for eight weeks of classes and it is mommy and me! I think it will be really fun, That is if she likes it, She could hate it! But I think she will like it because she loves the tub BUT darren loved swimming in the pool at home and as a baby FREAKED out in the big pool. We will see!

I am really sad that you are struggling so hard. I feel really bad. I wish that I could be there with you and that we could go to the gym together but it is not gonna happen any day soon so I have to get to you another way! I dont know Jenn! YOU CAN DO THIS and you are doing it! You have been working so hard and you are just finding that the scale is moving and you really need to keep it up!

Okay this is what I ate

B pancakes and sausage coffee
S no
L smart one and peppers mixed in
S banana and 150 calories in Chocalate raisins YUMMO
D chicken sub, foot long, I know ....
S gonna go get it now, Cereal!

Okay girlie! I am hitting the hay!

Love ya! Talk to you tommorrow I hope. I think you have the day off???

C

Giving up

Crys,

I don't know if I can keep doing this. I know I need to and want to but I feel so defeated that I am ready to just give it all up.

I had a horrible day yesterday:

B-4 French toast sticks from Sonic
L-3 pieces of pizza and 6 buffalo wings
D-2 brownies and a burrito (in that order)

I really don't have the time or energy it takes for me to do this. I am constantly on the go, I am so exhausted I can't even see straight half the time. I deserve this, and I am so close to being at 200 lbs it isn't funny. But I am tired.

I have food at the house to bring with me, but I can never seem to get it packed and ready for the day. Yes I should do it at night before I go to bed, and there I have to say I am lazy. I just want to relax.

UGH Okay I am done moaning and groaning.

Talk to ya later chickie,
Jenn

getting by...

Tommorrow is swimming and I am looking forward to that! I will that I could get there more often but you know you know you know....

This is what I ate today

B egg whites and peppers with one slice of cheese and two sausages
S pepper
L smart one with sweet potatos fries
S banana
D veggie burger sandwich and rice pudding for dessert
S califlower and FF salad dressing

So I think that it was an okay day. I did not get much exercise at all and I need to get my act together some how! I gotta get moving! Yesterday I forgot to tell you but I cleaned for like three hours. huh it is something I was moving! I am hoping actually that if I do start working the three longer days that I can take a lunch break and during that lunch break I can move around and get some time out in about. We will see! Okay! i am hitting the hay!

Love ya always and I hope you are having a good night!

C

another pretty good day

So I think that I did okay today and I am hoping to go to bed soon but gab is kinda having a hard time staying asleep tonight. She is in her crib! We will see how it goes. It is the second night in a row that we are using the crib again and I am shutting the tv and the computer asap. I want to get to sleep.

b egg white flatbread
s coffee
l smart one and veggies
s pear
d pizza and sweet poyato fries
s smart one dessert

k gab is up.

love ya

c

better...

Today was better and the best thing about today was that you were able to post here and tell me what was goinng on with you. I have been mighty lonely and I am so glad you are joining me again!

Sorry that you are struggling with health issues at work that are making dieting hard. I know that working for like 14 hours today is causing you to have a really hard time. I hope that you are not going to have to work tommorrow. It looks like you are not doing all that bad because you have not gained any weight. If I mess up for three days I GAIN! I hate it.

Anyway I did pretty good today....

B at friendlys egg white veggie omelet wheat toast and a little home fries with coffee
S no
L two pieces of pizza with no cheese, and three small sugar cookies
S pear
D a smart one and extra peppers green and red

So I think I did okay, the breakfast was not the best but I did good with being out and all. I hope that I am okay on the scale tommorrow. Okay girlie, I am gonna hit the hay.

Love ya!

C

One step forward two steps back

Okay so I made this plan to eat better today and of course someting got in my way.

My blood sugar dropped and I had a hard time recovering from it. Well when it dropped the first thing I could think of was to order food...a meat, bean and cheese burrito. Now this is not a small burrito they are probably a good 1/2-3/4 lbs. Then I didn't recover very fast and kept feeling bad so I had a snickers. Hopefully I can eat decent for dinner.

AARRRRRGGGGGG.

Completely frustrated.

Love ya,
Jenn

Road to freedom and recovery

Okay so some very exciting news first: Caleb slept in his bed ALL NIGHT last night!!! Woohoo. And he didn't cry but twice last night before he went to sleep. I am so proud of him, and let me tell you how good it feels to fall asleep in a comfortable position and be able to turn over and find another position wihtout having to move a baby. I love him to no end, but I like having my bed back.

Okay now onto some very important stuff. Crys I am really sorry I haven't posted on here lately. There really is no excuse why I can't jump on here for just 5 minutes to check in with everything. I have gotten lazy. Well let me tell you I am done with being lazy. I too have slacked so horribly with my accountability and my own right to eating healthy. Well I am back girlie!

Yesterday:

B-Spicy sausage and egg with cheese biscuite (about 500 calories)
L-Lasagna and 2 pieces of garlic bread (1000 calories)
D-Cheese steak sandwich with provolone cheese and 1/2 of the bread (750 calories)

Okay when you put it in perspective of calories, wholly crap I had 2250 calories and that is insane.

Today I am doing better though:

B- Cinnamon shredded wheat cereal with milk ( I didn't drink any of it) about 250 calories)
S-Coffee light and sweet (150 calories)

So already 400 calories and I am working a 12 hour day. Well looks like small salads for lunch and dinner and nothing for snack.

Crys, I think you are doing ok, and as you have said you need to cut down on your intake. We need to find stuff that is filling but doesn't have much calories to it. I have read that water packed veggies help with controlling hunger. Things like carrots and cucumbers. And they pack little calories. I also think that you should make a schedule for you to be sure to get 30 minutes of moderate exercise into your day. I know it is hard, trust me, but it is for you.

I am preturbed that I still can't get to the gym. I am still coughing something fierce and don't want to chance going t0 the gym and passing out.

I weighed in yeserday and still at 218. So the positive....I haven't gained.... but the bad.....I haven't lost. No surprise right.

Okay girlie sorry for the short one liners, I promise I will do better in the coming days. We both deserve it.

Okay so day one was ahhhh

Just okay! I guess but better for the past track record of the last few days! So here is what I ate today and I think it is really important for me to write about this!

B egg whites and one slice of cheese with peppers (350)
S grapes and coffee 150
L smart one and salad and veggies 500
S pear and two graham crackers with a little peanut butter 300
D chicken sub from subway and a smart one desert 800
S grapes 150

So I know that look like a lot hmmmm let me go back and do the calories...

okay well I had over 2000 calories tonight. ARG. I thought I did better but now I am not sure. Whatever the point is I am bac to it. I really think that the fact that I have not written down what I have eaten has made me forget to keep such close track of it. Whatever ! Here we go I am gonna try very hard now! And ARG I have to go out to breakfast tommorrow with Kelly and her sister to tell her about the surprise that we are doing for her and that is no good. I will get by.

I miss you here you know!!!!

C

this is the plan

So I am again not gonna tell you what I ate but I will tell you that it is bad. Not good at all.

So I went to the store and got myself a ton of good food. Veggies and fruits and diet dinners and I am on a misson. Tommorrow I will be back on track I hope!!! Okay I am hitting the hay! I hope you are doing well.

Love ya!

C

true struggle

Jenn,

I know that people want to get together and that it is nice to have family around. but I am struggling and it is not ALL my fault but I am trying and it is not working. I NEED THIS TO STOP.

Monday out to lunch with gram and ate bad
Tuesday out to lunch with judy and ate bad
Wed Judy at my house ofter I ate already and brought me more food. ATE BAD.

I nned help Do you see the problem???

Losing my mind