weighing in and a day for a dip...

So this week I lost weight but it was kinda cheating and I was a little lower yesterday but whatever I am down and that is what I care about!

I weigh 162.6.

I ate bad the last few days. It is like I do this to myself. I am doing great and then I mess up and I see myself doing it! BAD

Anyway I am not going to go on and on about what I ate today but I did stay under 2000 calories so I am over my goal but not all that bad and I swam for an hour with Darren at the pool tonight and it was a ton of fun anf great exercise! I hope that we keep it up! I am happy with the idea of going once a week but I wish that we could do two! I am going to try to bring gab soon but I think she is not going to like it much and with her I wont get the exercise or the time with bird, That is why I am going each and every tuesday without my girl and just with bird. maybe we could go two days but this is a start!

Anyway! I love ya and will talk to you soon. I hope that you are traveling safe.

C

So far today

I did good at breakfast and not so great at lunch. I went out to the dinner and had half a turkey club and some fries, coleslaw and a little of my gram rice pudding. No good! WHat ever. I have my girlfriend, so It is what it is. i will do better tommorrow.

You know I always do bad the day before I weigh in it is just like a mean joke I play on myself!

Love ya!

Crystal

not to bad

Hey girl....

rough night for me. But it is over now and I am going to bed. I hope you were okay the whole way home without me :( missed ya!

B egg whites flatbread and a few bites of bagel
L smart one without the chicken and a salad with oil and vingear
D steak, serving of rice, and three servings of corn

So I think that with the food I did okay. I hope that you did well too. I am hungry now! That is for sure! I am gonna go to bed now because I really want to do what I said I would and kick snacks after dinner.

Good night!

C

Today

Today was okay. It was busy for me and I took the kids to the muesum. It was fun and while I did not work out, I did do alot of moving around and going up and down the stairs so that is something.

Anyway this is what I ate

B one egg, bacon, and two slices toast with Jelly
L oatmeal with honey and FF milk
D Hamburger with FF cheese and lett tom, and home made red potato fries

And that was it in a nut shell.

i am telling you that I am beat. I know you know that feeling better than I but I am going to bed. I will have more to say here in the future days to come.

Love ya!

Crystal

I think it was okay

Well today was okay and I was finally able to eat a bit of food today and that was good. Seeing as I have been on a nothing diet for two days.

So I had

B one piece of toast with jelly and a few bites of banana
L flatbread sandwich with egg white and ketchup
D Footlong meatball sub with only haft the meatballs and provolone cheese

So I would say that I had....

120 calories for breakfast
300 calories for lunch
700 for dinner

So about 1120 for the day I guess but let me tell you I needed them. I have got to start getting better. I feel a hole lot better but my stomach is a bit off still. These are the things that I am hoping will come out of this being sick and jump starting my diet again (wrong way or not)

1. LIMIT big time the amount of caffiene as in coffee that I am having. BECAUSE I have only have a sip of coffee today and besides that not a drop since Tuesday. WHY would I not use this chance to kick the habit and form a better one??? So I am going to try really hard!

2. NO SNACKS AT NIGHT! I have not been eating at night because I have been sick but I have gotten by without that food and so for that I am planning on no longer having those snackc now. I AM GONNA DO THIS!

3. I am watching portions. I am looking at serving sizes and if I chose to have double portions I am keeping track of what that means for calories.

4. I am going to try to get more movement in. LOL Always a hard goal i guess huh?

Okay girlie that is all that I can say today. I hope that you have an okay night tonight and that the baby sleeps well for you. Poor fellow!

That's all for now....

Crystal

back in track but not for a good reason

Yup, i am doing good again with my eating. Of course I am sick as sin as you know and have no pat on the back effort for what Has happened. Boo hoo. I am just stopping in to say I am alive. I am not going to go on and on about what I ate because It was just a few bites of this and that.

Okay that is all. Sorry for the short ness but....I am gonna go to bed now.

Love ya!

C

okay this is really sad....

I looked over the last posts for all the times that I weighed in. I have not lost like anything this month. only about a pound. I am not happy at all. I really hope that I can kick things up and get it going again. I have GOT to get it together!

C

Well today I was off

And that is all that I can say.

I ate good at breakfast, fell off at lunch with all the goldfish and then soliditified that with dinner by going out to friendlys and eating the Cheesburger and fries that I did and the happy ending sundae. I know that I should not have and that it only sets me back more and that I was just arying to you this afternoon and then did this but I cannot be perfect and I have to fall off sometimes. But I am coming back hard and fast tommorrow I hope!!!! And Pray.

my mission is to take what you and I talked about with portions and run with it. I am gonna do this for me and to prove that I can to you for seven days and see what happens. I am gonna Jenn you are not going to have to tell me that I can take this one back.

Tommorrow I am going to eat a good breakfast and for lunch I have a huge meeting at work. i am planning on eating just the salad that they said that they are having. I think I might stop and get my own dressing because I am not sure what they will have and that will help big time. I am also going to find a way somehow someway to get the 30 mins in each day of moving and shaking! I have to because I lost NO weeight not even an once today and that is not making me feel very good. I have been at 165.4 for two weeks. No fun.

Ok girlie I am gonna lay down tonight.

Love ya!

C

I dont think

That I lost an once this week. I really got to look at what I am doing and see where I can cut things out and where I can get more movement into my day. I know that is what is going to make a difference. When you and the family move to CT then we can go on lots of walks. Wishful thinking. I know. But I think gab would love yah and let you watch her! LOL She is so fresh and stubburn. I think that will be a good trait someday but today it makes somethings like getting freedom a challenge. That is for sure.

I did not do terrible with the eating today.

B pancakes and sausage and coffee
S no
L subway footlong ( I did try but it did not work)
S no
D chicken soup and a piece of bread and butter
S pudding FF of course

So that is that. I made the chicken soup myself and like I told you I am not crazy about it with the weird way I am about chicken. Strange I know. I hope that you made out well at the gym. I now that you are gonna be crazzy thin soon you are so much more out and about then I am with the gym. I hate that I cant get there. I hope to find my way there tommorrow.

I love ya! I cant wait till I stumble on jobs for the two of yah. I can be the nanny lol...... a great theraputic nanny....

C

Okay today was just ahhh

I am gonna tell you what I ate quick and then I am gonna go lay down.

B egg white flatbread and a few bites of gabs bagel
L mac and cheese and turkey sandwich bad
D salad from boston market and strawberries
S cereal

Os it was ok. But not great.

I did walk a mile in the cold. Okay Gab is up of course love ya lots

C

Mmmmm Chalupas

HAHA! Okay so you had 3 pieces of pizza and I had 2 steak Chalupas, loaded of course, AND an apple caramel empanada. MMMMMMM. But Oh so BAD.

Thats okay, maybe tomorrow after I get off work I can go do some shopping and get fruits and veggies in my house again. I am really itching to try your strawberries with FF milk.

I will get back on track, just have to go shopping. Remember Cris that it's 80% good eating and 20% bad, so sounds to me like you are doing fine. Just get back on track tomorrow.

You know, for the longest time I have always told Jeff that I want to go to the East coast, so you saying that we could sit on each others couches and shoot the breeze will come to fruition one of these days. There is just something that has always drawn me to that area, no I don't know what it is, but I have this innate feeling that I would feel comfortable out there. Well until the temp drops below zero.

Cris, I feel honored that you think so highly of our friendship. Trust me I am ever so grateful that I took a chance and responded to your BC post. If it had not been for you putting that message out there, chances are we never would have known of each other. Not to mention that we are too much alike sometimes it is scary.

I am looking forward to tomorrow, I get to go to Sunday services at 6. After I get home though I can tell you that I am going right to bed because I am so exhausted right now. I also need to find the time to go to the gym. My legs are so very sore from lifiting weights, doing the eliptical and squatting last night at work that I feel like I have a ball in my thighs that is moving up and down as I walk. So I want to get on the treadmill and walk/jog it out. Crys you have to tell me how you burn almost 500 calories. I work hard, or so I thought and I only burn about 130-200 depending on what I do that day. So spill it girlie, how do you do it?

Okay girlie, I am going to try to plan to come see you AGAIN, in either Ausust, Septmeber this year or April next year. I have to wait to accrue some vacation time with work again, but I will and then I will come see you.

Okay girlie, since I talked to you on the way to work, I will get on here and check later at how things are going and post what I eat for dinner. You have fun and I will talk to you later

Love ya,
J

three pieces of pizza....gone gone gone

Yup that is right so far today I had

B two pancakes and egg whites
S no
L three pieces of pizza with CHEESE and sauce of course and a few goldfish

Why? You ask....making that face again. I love it by the way! Why? Because I took the kids to one of thoses crazy kid places with GERMS and BALL PITS and CRAZY KIDS and go carts yada yada yada and when you are there the choices are all bad and I was hungry. So I ate as you can see. But the plus side is I had to walk around carrying gab for three hours and sat for maybe a total of a half hour so I am going to guess I burned off one slice of pizza. Hmm. I am going to try to get to the store and make a huge salad for dinner this was I will not be tempted to eat junk later.

The good thing about last night is that I went to sleep at a great time. 9 :30 and there for did not eat a bit after dinner. That makes me happy! I went there( to the kid place) and I was so sad that I am always alone.. You need to know that if I did not have you I think I would have lost my mind by now and I mean that from the bottom of my heart. I wished we lived closer together because My life and yours too I would hope would be so much better if I could be sitting on your couch telling you all this crap first hand. Dont stress you could still have just your family 5 maybe 6 nights a week but that seventh night and day me and the kids are coming over during the day and you and me ONLY are going out in the night. HELLO NEW MEXICO! Lol.

Too much free time I know. I think I really have to take a college class ASAP. i feel my brain cells dying off and I dont like it.

LOVE ya always and if you are sleeping stay asleep of course but call me when you get up!

C

damn conference

Well I had the stupid conference today and as a result ate alittle worse than I wanted but over all not all that bad.

Here is what I had.

B 2 crossants with jelly and two mini muffins and coffee
s no
L salad from boston market with low fat dressing and 60% of one of connie dark chocolate 100 calorie hersey bar. Maybe 60 calories if you think about it....
S pear
D egg white noodles with little butter and cheese and goldfish of all things and strawberries. I bet you just made a face about that huh....

And so that was it. I dont know what that will add up to in the long run but oh well. It is not each and every day that I am out and about all the time. I also get less full at dinner when I cant have meat I think. I did not get any real exercise but oh I drank a TON of water. I must have walked out of the conference room four times to go to the bathroom people probally thought I was crazy but oh well.

I hope that your day went well. I may ask you tommorrow to put in my time sheet again. lol ;( sorry but I did not get to the office and I can go to donnas but then I would have to stay there and I dont really want to go over there tommorrow. Heather might go to the mall tommorrow and I told her that I would go if she does too. but I am not sure what happens because you know kids change their plans like crazy.

I hope Jeff got home again and you are busy with your family because I wish you were calling me...... :) but I am not sure if you are working or what....Sorry bad friend I know.

Okay girlie I am gonna go to bed. NIGHTY NIGHT!

Apples and bananas

That title has no reason. So I thought what the heck it came to mind!

I did okay with eating today but it took two hours to get gab to bed and I am beat. So I am gonna tell you what I ate and then I am going to go to sleep.

B egg white flatbread and coffee
S no
L diet burritos and veggie
S no
D subway foot long and veggies and a few bites of gabs noodles
S strawberries with FF milk

And that was that! I also worked out today for 50 mins and I burned 415 calories. That made me feel good. I was happy to be there and you are right when you said that the gym would help me. I think that it will!

Okay now I am going to sleep, I was wondering if you were gonna call tonight but you must have hit the hay. I will be a t wor all day tommorrow until 4 my time but if you want to talk call me after that if you can!

Miss ya!

Crystal

Today was....

Okay, so today was tiring at work and I had a headache coming home.

This is what I ate today:

B-string cheese with 1/2 a container of Honey Cherrios with 2% milk, but I did not drink the milk.
S-none
L-(BAD) Stuffed sopapillas x2
S-none
D-baked fish with spinach, mixed vegetables and cauliflower.

I did go to church tonight after dinner. It was just a bible study class, but I enjoyed it completely. I am going to go to Sunday Services at night and see how I like it. We shall see. All of them were very warm and welcoming.

Crys, don't worry too much about eating bad, just get back on the wagon tomorrow. I am behind you, I know how hard it is, trust me. But you can do it.

Okay CONFESSION.....I broke the challenge. :( I got on the scale and....drum roll......down 2!!!!! That's right down 2lbs. I am sooooo happy. So for me, it helps if I know that I want to see results after a period of time, so I work harder so I don't disappoint myself.

Okay I am going to fill out some paperwork for work and then I am going to hit the hay, I am exhausted.

Talk to you tomorrow after I get off work.

Love ya and thanks for being such a good friend,
Jenn

milk duds

I call this milk duds because I had some today. Boo hoo. i dont know.

This is what I ate today

B egg whites and sausage
S no
L cabbage (stuffed) mashed potatos a few fries and a bite of grilled cheese
S no
D chicken wrap and coleslaw and 170 calories of milk duds
S cereal with FF milk

I dont know I ate alot today. I think it is because I went to the gym and then I weighed more today and that really got me down. Whatever. I hope that it comes together for me this week. i will try to do better tommorrow but I have the day off and sometimes that is bad. I ate bad at lunch because I took my gram out. That makes a problem you know that!

Okay girl I hope you are having a good night and that we get to talk tommorrow. I am gonna watch this stupid american idol and go to bed.

Thanks for being you!

Crys

trying again!

Okay Jenn,

I am trying here like I told you to see if I can type a full entry seeing that the other part of my computer is dead. I cannot deal with it any more. so far I have written a few sentences and that is more than I have in a week. I think it might work!

What I ate today!

B pancakes and sausage and coffee
S no
L turkey wrap and veggies
s cereal
D pork chop and peas with mushrooms and rice
S cream of wheat with FF milk

I think that I did okay. I wish that I did not have as much rice as I did but it was not that bad. Now guess what I think I am gonna be able to have my typing back! I am soooo reliefed.

Okay, thank you for relieving me of the promise that I made and telling me to go ahead and weigh myself if I must. I am going to promise to not do it obsessivly if I can. I think that is better but I also think that this was a clear sign that I am obsessed because if not I would be able to not do it no problem. I also would have probally done better with the eating because I would not have been trying to prove to myself that I need to weigh myself every day in order to succeed so I do think that it was my own fault that I have not lost any weight this week.

I weighed myself and I weigh 165.4 so I only lost two onces which you and I know is really not losing anything. oh well. But now I know that I need to get my ass in gear to be honest. I did good today though with the exercise!!! I went to the gym! Yipee ! I was able to go on the treadmill for 30 minutes and then on the elipitcal for 15 mins then I left! I also went to get bird and donna was not there so I put the baby in the carriage and took her for a walk while we waited for another ten minutes. I also got an hour of exercise today! I am happy but the thing is that I have to keep it up! I am so proud of you for being able to get to the gym almost each and every day. I get so mad that I have all these excuses not to get there and you, who have a busy family and full time Job, are able to get to the gym and I boo hoo cannot. I have had it though girl I am gonna get there! I am also praying that this weather will keep it up because it is getting better outside and that makes me happy.

What esle did I want to tell you my beautiful and wonderful bestest friend??? Umm I love ya and you make me laugh and my life better!

At the gym I really wanted to do some of the weight training but I feel so uncomfortable with them because I do not really know what I am doing. I know how to set up the machines but I dont know what they all are and where they are and I always feel like people are watching me and thinking I am a wacko. I wish that I went to an all girl gym like you so that At least there were no men around. What ever I will get more comfortable as I go for sure!

What esle? Hmmm. I think that might be it. but as you can see this is working and I can tell you about my day again. Maybe that is why I did not lose weight this week! Because I have not been able to ramble on to you here! Either way Love ya!

Crystal

dreading.

I did good today but I am dreading trying to type it. i am gonna do something. Hold on!

Jenn I did ok today. I will type more to mmorrow. The

Love ya
c

Okay it posted on its own

You see what I am gorng thirew.
am sorry . I am going to ryun the scan agian.

Love y
Oj Jenn I

Crysat

Giving advice

Crystal,

I am so sorry that you are having a hard time with this whole diet and weighing in thing right now. If it is too hard for you, then get you scale fixed and go back to how you were doing it, I won't think any less of you. I have had urges to get onto the scale in the last couple of days and have fought them off so far. So I know that it must be hard for you, again, it was just an idea. If you can't do it and feel you do better with weighing in more often, then go for it, I don't want to hinder your progress.

I think right now you have a lot on your plate and so you are finding comfort in food. The stress is just too much for you and you are having a hard time balancing everything with all that is going on. My advice to you would be for you to just think of this as you are doing it for you, and that no matter what you need to do this. Trust me, you are preaching to the congregation, I know how hard it is, as you see today I fell off the wagon, and I do it a lot more than you do.

This is what I ate today:

b-none
s-none
L-Wendys Chicken Club sandwich,1/2 the french fries, and about 1/2 of my Dr. Pepper
S-None
D-a piece of steak

I have had an apple with a little caramel here tonight at work, and if I get hungry I have veggies with light ranch and yogurt that I can snack on.

I did hit the gym today, I did 30 minutes or so of cardio and then I did strength training for another 20 minutes. I really enjoy myself when I am at the gym. Crys, you should really look into getting into one, I think it would help ease a lot of stress that you are having. I am so proud of you for dancing around the house today, that is really cool. I think I am going to have to do that tomorrow, you know just to shake things up a bit and keep my body guessing, then I can go to the gym and get on the bike and do the circuit.

You know, this just hit me. It is proven that stress hinders a womans ability to lose weight. We may not be seeing the results we want because certain hormones and chemicals are still being released into our body to help us deal with stress. We need to find a way to let it go!

I talked to a friend of mine tonight when I stopped by Albertsons for my munchies and we got to talking and she said that we should not worry about tomorrow because God gives us the present and tomorrow will soon be the present. It makes sense to me. So, as hard as it is for me, I am going to try living one day at a time and enjoying the present. See if that doesn't relieve any stress.

Okay chickie I am going to say that I am a bit upset that we haven't been able to Skype as much as I would like. And it is neither of our faults, it is just something that bothers me. You are one of the very few people that I feel so close and connected to and I love talking to you on Skype, for right now that is the closest I can get to you. I really wish our lives weren't so busy. I sometimes despise how busy I am and the fact that I don't get to do what I would really love to do most of the time. I can only imagine how you feel, and I hope I have a good imagination because you deal with so much alone, I at least have some help.

Okay, I hope I didn't miss anything that you had posted about. If I did I am sorry, I will address it later.

Love ya bunches missy,
Jenn

there is three of them

Jenn'


There are three posts h please look below this one. I forgot to tell you that I did dance around the house for twenty minutes today so Cancel out two spoons of frosty.

C

Advice please....

i feel like I am losing it. In th diet and I have been so good! I need some advice so when you get a chance can you give it to me?

I have eaten good until now today and I had that frosty so that was bad. I am struggling with the not weighing in thing. I dont know jenn what do you think about it all?

B egg whites and toast and home fries and coffee
s no
l no
d chicken sandsich wendys and potato and frosty
s cream of wheat
S half tt I urkey sandwich BAD

jenn the computer is also getting to me I fix things and they get worse. I cannot go on and on but just know thatI really need your dadvice even though I did not post alot of worries I have alot.

Love ya!

Crystal

My apologies

I would like to apolgize for my obseen post last night. The computer was in front of me at the complete and total wrong moment. All I say is I am sorry and that is what the computer gets for holding on to this nasty virus that it has. Sorry to you Jeff if you read it, Jenn knows that I
am not an animal you on the other hand can only take her word for it.

Moving on....

I ate bad so far today lol Great news huh?
B no
L & B so there for brunch

GTT the troll is home tell you later.....

I hate my fucking life

That is right that is what I said. I am just so fed up with my life.

I came down and asked for my computer and John yelled at me like a kid in front of his nephew. I am so fucking done.

This is what I ate

you know about B
L 2 slices pizza with just sauce and birthday cake
S no
D sandwich on bagel and banana and veggies raw and plan
S a little cream of wheat with Honey

I am going to bed.

Love ya always,
Crystal

Tracking cookie....

Hey girl,

I ran a scan and what I have is a tracking cookie and the computer says that it has been resolved but you know what I am not so sure about that because it is still doing it. ARG It is going to me if I cannot post freely on here.

I am really worried about not weighing myself. I am worried that I might slack off and have no way to know if I am doing good or bad over the n.ext month What do you think?

I did good so far today but it is only 11 ish my time. I had cream of wheat and coffee for breakfast. BUT I am going to my grams today because John called her this week and orchastrated a surprise cake and coffee get together with my family. That is nice but FOOD will be there. Not happy aboutthis. oh well I cannot even type Jenn. i am going nuts.

Okay I will let you know how I make out later. i hope things are going well for you today and that you get some rest.

Love ya!

Crystal

Glad I made a promise because....

I would not want to get on the scale tommorrow! I ate like a horse and was not on a diet today at all. I told you that I was going to and you know what that is just what I did. Oh well. My computer is really acting up and it is doing things on its own. It just put the typing to be centered I would change it but I am afraid that if I do anything it will crash because it is nuts. ARG

Okay this is what I ate

B pancakes and sausage

S no

L cabbage and cornbeef and mashed potatsos

S banana

D pasta with saucte and hot peppers fried mozz ALITTLE,lot of bread and butter Jis and I give up!!!!!!!!!!enn the comptuer it doing wall th

A ton but

Out

S

This is carma

The scale is broke. I think it might be fixable but I am gonna go with it is broke so there for I cannot see if it is not broke again for a month. I am not gonna lie I touched it this morning out of my sleep like I said I was worried about and I found to my surprise as my eyes ajusted that the scale was broke and so therefor could not weigh!!Ha the scale registers weight when noone is touching it.HA!

Talk to you later and by the way today, tell Jeff will be my freebie DAY!! You will see later.

Love ya!

C

Free meal

Okay, so today I posted part of what I ate, and I told you the rest Crystal. Today, Jeff brought up a good point that we should have 1 "freebie meal" a week. Tonight we chose Pizza. Yes I ate a lot, 1 3/4 pieces and a piece of dessert pizza. So it was bad, BUT in my defense I did go to the gym, did 20 minutes on the bike and burned 150 calories AND I did the circuit training and burned about another 300 calories. So I don't think I did too bad. It definitely does not equate out to the calories I consumed for dinner, but I didn't sit around and let it settle either. Back on track tomorrow.

Crystal, I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT! No weigh ins until the 12th of April. I will also get my fruits and veggies in. I am going to see what I can finagle with my paycheck. ($755 paycheck and $745 in bills). :( But yes, I will get more in.

Crystal you did awesome today. I am so proud of you. I am even more proud of you for cutting out caffeine. That is great. Keep up the good work lady.

Okay last but not least, kieep your fingers crossed. I got Caleb to sleep tonight and laid him in his crib, covered him with our blanket and he has been sleeping in his bed for 2 1/2 hours. It's a start. Right?

Love ya,
Jenn

My promise to you.....

Jenn,

I promise as of tommorrow I will not weigh myself intil April 12th. This is a huge commitment since I have been so obsessed. I just hope that I can remember not to stumble out of my bed and weigh myself lol. Even as I am typing this I am worried about it!

Anyway, This is what I ate today.

B pancakes and sausage
S coffee
Lveggies and hummus and noodles
S no
D turkey sandwich on a bagel and squash
S cereal and strawberries

I think that I did okay but it is going to be sooooo hard for tommorrow!! NOT TO GET ON THE SCALE! ARG. I think this will push me to eat good and get walks in because it will not be a proven fact that I am losing weight and I am going to be afraid that I am not.

Okay I have a big head ache I am going to lay down. Remember to get your fruits and veggies in girlfriend!!!

C

Challenge

Okay, so yesterday I hit the gym, and I hit it hard. I only did 16 minutes, but I alternating jogging at 4.5mph and walking at 3.0mph. I burned 150 calories in that period. I also lifted some weights and did some ab exercises on a pilates ball. So I think I did ok.

I ate a bagel with turkey, provolone, and tomatoes with light mayo and mustard for dinner and then a skinny cow ice cream sandwich.

This morning so far I have eaten a ceral on the go (cinnamon toast crunch) but nothing else. I am just not feeling hungry lately. We'll see how today goes.

I am planning on going to the gym today and I think I will ride a bike. It's not as much fun as the treadmill but I have to change things up.

Crystal I am challenging you to put up the scale. I think that we are not seeing the results we want to because we are obsessed with those damn numbers. So, I am challenging you to put it up for 1 month. We will weigh in on April 12. How does that sound?

Talk to you soon. Love ya,
Jenn

Today....

Not sure if that weigh loss was real or not being that I got on the scale and weighed 167.0 today and I am not sure what the heck that is about. I not going to get to crazy about it because I ate before I went to bed even more than I told you last night. I ate some goldfish but it was too late for me to tell you. The goldfish was only a serving but still it was like 200 calories that I did not need at all. I have to get more veggies in the house because we are out of them and I am not adding them in during the day and as a result I find my self eating more crap. I dont want to do that because I really do want to keep losing and get to my goal. You have a lot of faith in me but I feel bad these days.

So we will see what happens tommorrow and hold on because it may be a flook. But either was I am still down for the week. See the thing is that I weigh myself to much. No good. I have to just weigh myself once a weeek but it is like when I was pregnant and boarding on obsessive. whatever.

Anyway this is what I ate today.

B eggs and sausage
s no
L flatbread and chicken sandwich on a light wrap maybe 400 calories if that.
S coffee
D Hamburger w ketchup and no bun and left over organic mac and cheese and beets
S oatmeal with a banana and honey

As you can see the whole day has like no veggies. I did have lett on the sandwich but they are missing and they add so much fullness but like no calories to the day. I did eat a bunch of beets because I felt bad about not having any darn veggies in the house. I have to find a way to get to the store and get myself some tommorrow. Darren is of course going to be home tommorrow sick with John. But I will have a few extra minutes in the morning and then I will be able to stop at the store before I see my first kid.

Okay I am going to take care of my bird because he is not feeling well at all and I am so sad that he is notgetting better like the bum dr said. Arg. I hope that he will be better somewhat tommorrow.

Okay honey, dont take it to hard that you ate a big burrito because you need to eat. You cannot go for the whole day without eating and then get mad when you eat things you did not plan to. You have to eat to keep yourself not straving and then you will make better choices. I need to take my own advice too sometimes so dont stress I will re read the paragraph and add mine namewhere your name is.

Okay let me go get my bird out of the tub.

Love ya

C

Starving

Okay so today I have been starving. I stopped at McDonalds and got me a fruit and yogurt parfait and ate only 3/4 of it. But I was still starving so I ate a big, no make that huge burrito. So I feel guilty now, but oh well. At least I ate this morning. I will eat light for lunch and dinner. Okay I'm at work so I have to go but just wanted to check in. Crystal you are doing awesome if you lost 3lbs this week! You will be at goal in no time!

Jenn

WHat I had today....

B two pancakes and two sausage w coffee
S no
L one taco wrap
S no
D chicken nuggets w organic macoroni and tomatos
S oatmeal, a little cottage cheese, a slice of raisin toast

so I made up for the snacks that I skipped but whatever. I hate when I eat things after dinner but it was early though, like 8.

Okay...gab is up again. Talk to you soon!

c

weighing in.

Real fast while I have a sec. I am reporting my weight.

I weighed 165.6 today which would mean that I lost three pounds this week. I am not sure if that is right? But I tried three times on the scale and that is what it says either way that is good if it is true!

talk to you later about my day.

EAT!!!

c

Hmmmmm

Crystal, to be honest with you I don't think I eat enough during the day some days. I know that yesterday I ate at Denny's for breakfast (even left some on my plate!) and then I ate some popcorn (left some of that too!), but then I didn't eat dinner until 730 last night. Like today I haven't eaten at all yet. I have just been too busy. I got up at 7 and fed the baby, attempted to cook some food for me, but it wasn't cooked right because I was busy with the baby. Then I started cleaning off my love seat. So I haven't eaten, I'm hungry but just don't see when I will have time to eat. After I get off of here I am going to go back to cleaning. I know it's not good, but what can I say, right now my priorities aren't in order for myself.

Okay so I feel bad, just right now Caleb was acting cranky because he was ready for nap, but he didn't want anything I did for him, so I put him in his crib, turned on his music and let him go. He cried for about 3-5 minutes but he is quiet now, as soon as I know he is good and down I will go check on him.

Crystal it still seems like you are doing so awesome. I am so very proud of you for doing such a good job and not giving in to temptations and staying on track. I really feel like this has helped us both! I am really glad we had this idea.

Um...Caleb is cutting more teeth. He is getting the left 2nd bottom tooth. Poor baby. I feel bad because Gab still doesn't have any. Maybe you should take her to the dentist just to see what he says. I know that the doc said that they don't worry about it until after 14 months but that seems to be a bit late. But then again, I'm nuts.

Haha...Caleb is playing in his crib, I can hear his music maker banging against his crib....and now he is crying again. Oh well it is worth a shot.

Gotta go get him...talk to you soon

Love ya,
Jenn

Thanks Girlie!!

Hey Jenn,

I was thinking you remind me of myself so It is really funny that Jeff said that. Huh....maybe we are really more alike then we thought.....You never know! LOL

Anyway, It looks like you did great with the day but then the night was hard. Are you eating enough during the day to help you through the night? I cant imagine how hard it is because I sleep through those hours. If I had to work one week the way that you do I would be twenty pounds back up and in the looney bin. LOL.

Today I ate....

B flatbread w egg whites
s no
L smart one with a little extra pasta
S no
D diet chicken and egg noodles and a half of a taco
S oatmeal w honey and FF milk

So I guess that it was okay. Oh but you know what stinks I am not able to get any movement in. I sooooo want to be like you and get to the gym. Hold on I will be back I have to read Darren a book Arg. I know that once it gets nice out and stays nice out that this will change but it feels like it is taking forever!

Oh thank you so much for saying such nice things about the kids too. I guess we are both really lucky with the little ones that we have. Great kids from great parents!

I hope that you had a good night off and got to spend some time with every one and resting. Tommorrow is my weigh in day, I am hopeful. I will talk to you tommorrow BC I am gonna hit the hay. Ever since I got sick my legs and back are still hurting. It is weird they feel really tired but I did not do enough to be tired. Oh well. Love ya lots


I am so happy that you are feeling happy. You mean a ton to me. You gotta know that! God bless Babycenter!

Love Ya!

C

Complete

Okay,

First off I wanted to tell you Crystal that you are an amazing person. You are beautiful and having some very amazing children. Darren reminds me of a body guard which is totally cool and Gab looks just so beautiful and she is so smart. You ma'am are beautiful. Jeff told me today that we look alike, so if he thinks I'm beautiful then that means you are too. And let me tell you, you look smaller than you make yourself out to be as well. Any man would be lucky to have you and should be happy to have you.

Okay so today I ate ok....

B-none
S-none
L-1/2 bagel with butter and jam
S-Almond cereal bar
D-8 Shrimp with whole wheat pasta and I added Parmesan cheese

Than it went down hill....I ate a 6 pack of chocolate donuts. I was so hungry and all of the convenience stores were closed already so I had to make a choice, and of course I made a bad one. Oh well. I will hit the gym tomorrow hard.

Today I think I had a good amount of physical exercise, this morning I raked the front yard and then I went to the gym, completed Program 2 on the treadmill (30 minutes) and burned 206 calories. So if you add in the raking I think I burned about 250 calories.

Okay, so work is busier than normal, so I will have to cut it short. But I want to say thank you for being you and for being my BFF. Today I feel like my life is complete right now. I hope it stays like this for a long time.

Love ya always,
Jenn

small bowl of cheerios w FF milk.

i had to confess.

2 grammas

Hi you! I hope your sleeping! But if not and you read this then call me! I am afraid to wake you up! All your kids are sooooo cute! I Loved seeing everyone today! Know I have a face for each of the cambells! nice to meet you all guys!

I love Skype! Judy was funny today when she was like come over!!! I felt like telling her listen hunny but if Jenn lived even three states away you would never see me! WE would meet each and every weekend in the middle somewhere! If you dont get to come see me this time that you were talking about....I will start saving too and we will meet somewhere in the middle.

I titled this two grammas because that is what my day was about really. I had my gramma at church and then out to breakfast and then Judy came over and asked me to go out for dinner!!! AHHHH!!! not good for dieting at all but I could have done alot worse.

B eggs, toast w jelly, sausage, homefries and coffee oh and a bit of gab's bagel. Bad I know.....
S no
L no
S no
D Chicken terayki and mashed potatos a piece of bread and a little salad and water Bad again...

But you can see that I gave up alot today to try to make up for the damage that I did with the two grammas. It is so hard to go out with them and not feel like I have to eat eat eat....So I can only hope that I can get up tommorrow and not have gained two pounds arg.

Anyway, I hope that you have a good night at work. I am relaxing. Darren just asked me to watch a movie with him. Jenn he never has enough of me...I want to pull my hair out sometimes. I wish that he had a close in age sibling. that is the thing that sucks because I am doing this to gab to because there is no sibling in site for her. They have each other!!! That is about it. Maybe when I am 35 and Darren is 18 and gab is 10 LOL. That would be something huh? I could have more kids than you when I put it that way! Relax I think you will always beat me but you never know! oh yeah and you and Jeff might decide to adopt octoplets someday. I am being silly....!

Love ya!

C

Important matters!

Hi you! I wanted to tell you this here because I want the world to hear it! You are a beautiful Woman!!! You have such a young and happy face! And a great smile! I am so glad that we are able to use skype and that you like it! I am of course happy to speak to you here and on the phone to but the computer thing is the best! Woo hoo!

Okay now i had a really good day with the kids and while I did not do any real exercise I feel like I got more in today than the last week or so. Walking around the muesum holding gab and going up and down stairs with her it makes for tired legs! I have them I should know! She really loved exploring and looking at all the people and Darren had a lot of fun. It was one of those days where he was laughing thank god. I hate that my boy has been not himself but today I felt like we got it back a bit.

Tommorrow we have church and then we are going to breakfast with my gram. After that we are gonna go hang around over there. I wanted to ask you for a pain in the ass fav tommmorow. I have to put in my timesheet online and I have expired excell. So there for I can only see it but I cant change the date for my timesheet. So I was wondering if maybe you could help me with that if It is not too much. I am gonna send it to you and have you see if you can open it and then just type in the dates and times then send it back to me and then I will send it off to my boss. Again if I am being a pain no prob. But you could test out more computer features!

Okay....This is what I ate today

B eggs and peppers
S no
L hamburger, a few frys and fat free frozen yogurt
S no
D a few chicken nuggets, corn and butternut squash

So I think that I did okay considering at least that I got to run around with the kids. I hope that I did not kill it all with the hamburger. I took the kids to friendlys before we went to the muesum. I did not get cheese or mayo on the burger so it was better for me than the norm and I only ate half the bun. I guess you cut where you can...Which brings me to the next order f business...

I AM SO SORRY for not getting to this sooner but CONGRATS on losing 4 more pounds!!! That is a huge accomplishment and I am very proud of you!!! I was getting worried that there was something in your way like the pills but you kicked but so now there is no more need to fret! You are on the way down for sure!!! I pray that I get my act together and get back into it with you. I have been doing nothing and I was only down .8 last week so I am hoping for a little more. Okay I gotta go now I am gonna be looking around on the ccomputer for a few and then I am hitting the hay!

Love ya

C

I MISSED A NIGHT!!!!!

I cant believe it! I missed a night! I fell asleep at 9 before both of my kids in the first time in forever! i made John take the baby and get her to sleep, time number two since she has been born and Darren just put himself to bed poor kid! And I like a bum went to bed at 9 but I am sick and I needed it!!! Today I feel a bit better and I am gonna do something with my poor neglected children to make it up to them!

So here is what I ate yesterday really fast...

B pancakes and eggs
S no
L veggie patty
S banana
D 9 inch sub lol and goldfish and rice crisy treat

BAD at Dinner I went over board with the snack food but I DID NOT EAT AT NIGHT!!! Woo hoo! Okay I am not gonna go on and on here because I have to get on here later on today. I will talk to you soon I hope!

Love ya!

Crystal

Addicted

Okay so I am so so so so so addicted to Skype. That is the coolest thing I have found in a long time. I absolutely love it. Thank you Crystal.

What I ate today:

B-A piece of wheat toast with 1 tsp of jam, a yogurt, and some raisins
S-None
L-Chicken, fruit and walnut salad
S-None
D-Mandarin oranges

I have a side caesar salad in the fridge but don't know if I am going to eat it. My belly isn't feeling too well, I feel really bloated. I have a 1.5L bottle of water here but just don't know if I am going to drink that either, I'm just not thirsty.

So tonight is creeping by, I feel like I have been here for at least 6 hours and it has only been 3. I really want to be at home with the kids.

Okay, that is all...I will try and check in later.

Jenn

SKYPE!!!

WOOO hoo we have Skype up and going so I am busy with that but this is what I ate.

B Egg white omlet
S no
L 6 inch sub and peas and banana and a little chicken soup
S no
D pork chop and mashed potatos and a smore
S toast and coffee

Yup I know what the heck was the snack for.

K I am gonna go talk to you!

Not so light

Okay, so I had said that I was going to eat light for dinner and I didn't. The shrimp I had taken out wasn't defrosted, so we went to Arbys, but I did not eat the fries and I had the french dip.

This morning I had McDonalds breakfast pancake platter and I threw away 1 1/2 pancakes and ate only 1 1/2 and 1 piece of sausage. I did drink a hazelnut iced coffee, but it was the small one. I do have almost a full liter of water with me today, an apple with peanut butter, and a yogurt. I am going to eat a dalad for lunch, so I think I will have eaten ok today.

I am planning on going to the gym but it depends on whether or not the babysitter picks up Autumn from jump rope club or if she walks home. If she walks home then I will have to go later.

Okay, I guess that is all for right now, pray that I have a good day.

Jenn

Hey Girlie~ Congrats on getting your butt to the gym. I cannot do much of anything in the way of movment as you know I have the flu for real. And I have snow on the ground and so cannot get out to go for a walk either. Boo hoo. I cannot wait for it to get warmer again and then I can get out theere and move. I have been thinking alot about what you said about getting a sitter for my girl so that I can get out to the gym and I am going to come hell or high water because it is getting sickening that I never get to go and John gets to take care of his body each and every day. ARG Whatever

Okay this is what I ate today....

B pancakes and sausage low fat of course and coffee
S no
L flat bread, banana, and peas and a 1/4 of gabs bagel
S no
d 6 inch SUB YUP ^INChes!!! and tomatos and one smore with Lowfat grahams and mini marshmellows and MinM's
S toast ( I think I am gonna have this because I am gonna take some mortin but I will try not to have it.)

Okay really quick until I feel better my goal for this weel is going to be to eat decent and try to get rest but not to try to be to wrapped up in worrying about it because I am sick and it is unfair to be depriving myself if I am not feeling well. That being said I am gonna work extra hard after I get better!

Okay girl that is it I am gonna lay down and try to go to sleep without anything. Lets see what happens.

Love ya!

Ps me and Darren had a really good laugh about a commerical that we saw when we were watching american idol this morning. I will tell you about it tommorrow but it was so funny that he cried and my sides hurt! The first time in a long time that we laughed together like that. Fun but Sad at the same time. You know what I might just hire the sitter so that Darren and I can get out together and maybe we can do activy things.

C

toast and milk again

Yup I had toast and milk again and a big mortin and I am going to the Dr tomm because I am sure that it is something that needs meds.

Love the new look for the blog. Nice job!!!

C

A tiny little miracle....

DOWN .8 That is right down!! 168.8.

So this was not the first week that I did not lose. Of course I did not lose enough or what I wanted to lose but Like I say lol it IS WHAT IT IS!!

Today this is what I ate...

B egg white omelet
S no
L smart one with a little extra pasta
S graham crackers and tea
D Pork chop and rice and veggies And a half of Darrens smore for dessert!

I figured that I deserved that little bit of sweetness. It tasted so good as I have not had sweets in forever!

I hope that you guys are enjoying your picnic. I sure wish that I could do that. Lol. I had to clean at least 24 inches of snow of my whole car this morning. I know that it is hard for you to think about that. But it took me 25 minutes and I used a broom and I was removing the snow the whole time! Can you imagine that. Cause that is what happened.

I guess that we can say that the snow removal was somewhat like exercise huh?

Okay girlie! I am gonna take my sick self and go to bed.

Nighty night.

C

BLAH

Okay, so Crystal I know that you are not feeling well and I'm sorry. I wish you could have done without those extra calories as well. But as you always say it is what it is. Maybe once you are feeling better you can work on not eating before bed. I took a Sudafed against my every wish not to simply because of the Paxil. But God my face hurts and my sinuses are killing me, and I just wanted to breath, which it didn't help. Not to mention that I laid down at like 11 last night and am back up at 5 with having tossed and turned all night. I don't know how many times I looked at that stupid clock last night. Oh well, they are squeezing me in at the doctors today at 1:15 so hopefully she will give me something for some relief.

I ate pretty good yesterday, probably not nearly enough times, but none the less I did ok:

B-McDonalds pancacke platter: 3 pancakes with a piece of sausage nothing to drink
S-None
L-None
S-None
D-A 3in piece of steak, 20 popcorn shrimp a salad and a piece of french bread (small)

The place that I lacked yesterday was water intake. If I did 32 ounces I was doing good. But today is another day and I will work on it.

Caleb is still giving us problems with sleeping in his crib. Last night we put him in bed 4 times before 11 o'clock to have him try and sleep in his bed and he would for about 30 minutes or so and would wake up. Of course, I gave in because I was exhausted and he slept with us. Oh, well I was thinking that maybe he will age out of it and things will get better as he gets older?

I hate the fact that I am not going to get to go to the gym until I feel better. It seems that every time I get going on something good something gets in the way. I don't know. I was thinking that maybe I got sick from using a machine at the gym that wasn't wiped down, so I am going to buy a bottle of Lysol and before I use a machine I am going to spray it down. Hopefully that will help curb me getting sick again in the future.

Okay I guess that is it, short and sweet. If you don't go in today or if you want to talk when you get off just text me...oh crap, I have to go buy a car charger for my phone, it is almost dead and the charger is at work. Okay, I will check my phone once I have it charged again.

Thanks friend,
Jenn

Motrin

Gotta admit that I had toast tonight at 1100 so that I could have a big motrin. I dont feel good again and the other one that I took earlier wore off but you have to eat with it. So I had two slices light toast with Jelly about 200 calories and a glass of milk. About 300 calories all together that I wish I went to bed without. But My head hurts so bad I knew I would not sleep without it.

Okay now that I confessed I can lay down!

Love ya

C

This is what I ate today...Since we were able to talk before I am just gonna tell you what I ate....

B Egg white omelet
S no
L smart one with peas added
S graham crackers
D Foot lone chicken sub from subway

So I guess when you look at it it is not all that bad. I hope that tommorrow when I get up tommorrow that maybe just maybe the scale will be a bit better than it was this morning. AND tommorrow is the way in day for me so I am not sure if I am gonna be happy. I think that okay I know that this week will not be a week that I lose weight and it will be the first week that that has happened since we started so Of course I am gonna be down about it in the long run. Whatever.

Okay I am gonna go finish watching the bachelor. It is almost over!

Thanks! For being you!

Crystal

Resist, Complete and Sick

Okay so 2 out of 3 isn't bad. I am so completely proud of myself right now and only hope that I can keep up all of this and continue to make progress. I get discouraged easily.

So first off, for over a week now and twice today I have resisted Dr.Pepper. The other day I went to Wendy's and got a Spicy Chicken Sandwich with a side salad and and Iced Tea. Then yesterday I went to Wendys and got a baked potato with a caesar side salad and an Iced Tea. Today I went to wendys and got a baked potato, caesar side salad, and oranges and NOTHING to drink, I stopped and got water. Then tonight I am so tired that I wanted some caffeine and a Dr. Pepper sounded really good, BUT I RESISTED!!! So I have my 1L of water sitting open on the desk right now and am enjoying it. Although I do have coffee made and will probably have to give in.

Secondly, I completed the Program 1 of the treadmill today. WOOHOO!!! I started out by taking down the intensity and decided nope that was too slow, so I put it up to where it is supposed to be and I finished the 29 1/2 minute workout. I burned 201 calories, AND I lifted some weights today, AND did crunches on an exercise ball along with some leg lifts. I spent 45 minutes at the gym and felt wonderful...until....

I STARTED FEELING SICK. Okay Crystal this must be communal long distance because I feel like crap. My head and ears and throat hurts, hell my whole body hurts. I am running a low grade fever and just feel miserable. HAH! Maybe tomorrow we can lay in bed and talk to each other all day....oh wait you have the princess and no help....sorry. But still maybe we can talk if you don't go in tomorrow.

I unfortunately am sitting at work because we all know that there is no one that can really cover my shift...so here I am.

This is what I ate today...

B-None
S-None
L-2 tortillas with 5% lean ham and cheese with low fat mayonnaise and spicy brown mustard
S-None
D-Broccoli Cheese Baked potato, a caesar side salad and mandarin oranges
S-Bugles bag...small like 10oz.

Oh and I have almost consumed 2L of water in the last 17 hours. So not too bad.

Mr. Caleb has been kind of fussy today and I think that he is either A) getting more teeth because he's chewing on everything or B) he is getting ill and is hurting like I am. We gave him some motrin tonight and he seemed to calm down a bit. I really want it to be that he is teething and not getting ill...I will be really upset. I hate to see him so sick.

I slept most of today. I didn't get up until 10 this morning and then got back from the gym and laid back down around 2-230 and got up around 530-6. So I am beat, and of course not feeling well. I am hoping that tomorrow I can sleep all day. But we will have to see.

Crystal, I think that you are doing good still. I will hope for you that you don't gain anything. I guess the bright side of things is that if you are sick you may not feel like eating and will lose more weight. Sick way to look at it but it is the truth.

Okay so I guess that is it for now....I will try and post on here tomorrow evening but I'm not going to promise anything because of the way that I am feeling. I also won't think twice if you don't post either. Get better soon.

Love ya,
Jenn

Not in denial

All I can say is that I am not denying it..... I ate to much today and I feel like shit and I am not gonna care about it....Till I feel better. I am not saying that I ate a ton or had a big sundae but you will see and it is what it is.

What it is....

B toast w jelly and a banana
S blueberries
L chicken sandwich w cheese and FFrys
S toast w jelly and a banana
D Speggetti squash with Sauce and a meatball and a half and piece of bread w butter
S cereal with FF milk and a piece of bread and butter
S graham cracker

So as you can see i went nuts today. All I can say is tommorrow is another day and lets pray I dont gain.

I am gonna lay down now cause I am sick as sin. Love ya

C