I'm glad that you are able to work things out in the room with your therapist. That is great! The more you talk about it the more I think I should get back in there. The reason I don't is because I just feel like I am talking in circles most of the time and not getting anything accomplished, albeit the longest I have gone is maybe a month or two, so I really can't say that I have ever given it a chance!
Well moving onto my business. Essentially I am a consumer direct marketer which means, I promote my business online to others in two fashions: one from a business opportunity perspective and second from a product prospective. I love my products. They are all eco-friendly, no carcinogens, no toxins or harmful chemicals, just pure and natural...well nature! They don't smell as good as the store brand stuff does, BUT they work BETTER and they are natural! Our corporate partner has a line of all natural beauty products, hair care items, stuff for the kids, toothpaste, cleaners, air freshners, candles, I mean they have everything that you use in your house today in a natural element. They have the absolute best vitamins there are! Girl, I could go on and on. I know you don't go on facebook, so I will post some links here for you to check out! The information is phenomenal! http://www.preventcancer.com/consumers/household/carcinogens_home.htm That is the only one that I found tonight, but I always look for more information! OH! Clorox wipes, HORRIBLE for you to use! We have an equivalent wipe that is just as durable and cleans better just natural. Prices are comparable too because the products I buy are at WHOLESALE prices! SO, this is what I do day in and day out hours a day, post ads and links and stuff like that so I can try and promote my business! I also had business cards made, made flyers, and am going to start posting those around the city and see if I can't get any hits! If you know anyone who is looking to work from home or are looking for eco-friendly cleaning products spread the word and have them get in contact with me through my website: http://www.jlcwellness.com/
So, moving on. Sorry to hear about Gabbie. You know I NEVER had to do anything for Caleb at night, the second he had potty training down he automatically trained at night too. I think he has had 2 accidents but I think both times he had a fever. But yes, with the other kids I just got a waterproof mattress cover and put it on until they were completely trained. But if she is waking up dry in the mornings then I don't think that you will have to worry to much about it.
Okay onto school. Girl it is so hard for me sometimes. I never thought that I would have such a hard time doing a masters! As you know I am going through Saint Josephs University out of Pennsylvania and it is a Jesuit school. I had gone to another school similar to this and it was just as hard, I just think that the cirriculum at a religious school is more difficult, but I could be wrong. Right now I am taking an Ethics in Criminal Justice class and we started out with philosphers such as Kant, J.S. Mill, and others. We are speaking on such difficult topics as censorship and pornography as well as police brutality. It really is just a bit more difficult. My first research paper is due in 2 1/2 weeks, 3500 words. That's not so hard. My initial topic was going to be Police Discretion: Are ethics always considred. She called me today to talk about it and said that it was way too broad, which I knew, BUT we narrowed it down to Police Discretion in instances of Intimate Relationships. Now, here is the kicker, I mentioned how I had to move to my bedroom because the kids were home and I would need quiet. At the end of our conversation she said: "Now, having 4 children of my own, I know that if I don't put a time limit on this it will never get done, so I need your rough draft by Sunday." WHAT?! I need to do more research and stuff. Well now you can tell what I am going to be these next 3 days or so! But, she was really, really helpful and she talked me through some things, but she did it by making me think and talk it out. She was really amazing and I am so grateful that I have someone to help me!
Next semester which for me starts May 9th, I am scheduled for 2 classes: Basic Principles of Behavioral Analysis Criminological Theory So, these should be quite challenging and yet rewarding. I am sure they ar going to require a lot of hard work! But, I will make it through. Right now I am carrying a 92 in this class, so not too bad for my first graduate class.
Man, let me tell you Caleb is a demon! I read an article on line from Circle of Moms website and they said that to stop children from arguing and screaming that the parents have to change themselves first. So, today I decided that I wasn't going to raise my voice at him, I was going to let him throw a fit and when he was done, we would sit down and talk about it. Well, he had a hard start to the morning because my mom and I had to go to Wal-Mart to pick up some stuff and he wanted to push the basket. Fine, it's early there really isn't a lot of people there, I'll let him do it. Well he was walking so slow, and I could tell my mom was getting impatient, so I picked him up and put him in the basket. OH MY GOODNESS CRYS YOU WOULD THINK I WAS KILLING HIM!!! He screamed at the top of lungs, he cried, kicked, hit and tried getting out of the basket! I ignored it, thinking nope I am not going to give in and let him out of the basket, I am going to make him stay in there because I am the mother and he is the child. I listened to that no lie for 20 minutes! He finally started to settle down and I let him out. He does this all the time!
I have gotten really good about not giving him too many choices. Like for breakfast I don't ask him what he wants anymore I just make something. I don't always ask him what he wants to drink I just give him something. And for the most part he is ok with it. There are just some times that he can't deal with it and he loses his mind! I have to admit though I only raised my voice 2 times today. So, it is a vast improvement! You know the sad thing is that I love him so much and I hate to see him cry and be so sad all the time, but Crys he is out of control. He cries if he doesn't get a banana when he asks for it, he cries if we won't sit down and play Batman on the Xbox, he cries if we tell him no. I just don't know what to do anymore. My neice tells me I have to be stronger than he is and just hold fast to what I say, and trust me I do a really good job. But it is by far the most stressful thing I have ever had to do!
Okay chickie, I am exhausted like always. I am going to get off of here and go get ready for bed. I KNOW that Gabbie is going to be just fine in her potty training. You will see how easy it is. I am so happy that you finally have some freedom from your relationship with John. You can now work on Crystal and be the person you have always wanted to be!
Love you and miss you tons. Hope to speak to you on the phone one day again. LOL!
Jenn
