My dearest Crystal,
Crysatal, Crystal, Crystal.
I know that you are having a hard time right now, I can just tell by the sound of your voice and the way that you haven't texted me, called me or anything. Maybe it is because we are not in contact like we used to be, and if it is because you think I am too busy, or because I don't call you, or whatever, please let me know so that way I can fix whatever it is I can. I feel like you are slowly slipping away from me, and in the last couple of days at a faster rate. Girl, what is going on with you? You mean so much to me I really don't want to lose you, then who would I talk to? Who could I cry to? Hell, who would understand me the way you do? We are like twins from another mother, and a different year. It is amazing how similar we are.
I too have been struggling. I am constantly craving chocolate. I try and eat decent and I haven't been doing too bad, but then I ruin it with things like butter toffee popcorn at 1/4 of a box. Or I eat chocolate and ruin it. So I too am struggling, and I don't know what I am going to do get back on track. I just don't think I am ready to give up. I know that a lot of my problem is control. I don't have any self control. Marsha brings in all the goodies, and I just can't keep my hands off of them.
So today, this is what I ate:
B-1/4 of a Cranberry Orange muffin and some strawberries
L-That turkey concoction I made NO PASTA!!!
D-Beef Tips, 2 baby red potatoes, and a serving of broccoli
S-3 Ferrero Rochers, and a 1/4 box (about) of Butter Toffee Popcorn
I know for me I have to get back to the gym. I HAVE TO. I do so much better when I am actively going. It is hard right now, but I have to give myself the time to do it. It is better for me, I feel like a million bucks when I am going.
Crys, please tell ime if there is anything I can do to help you. I feel like a bad friend, because you have seemed to go into this little shell and I don't want to have you there. I love to hear you laugh and joke. I am sorry that I didn't call you today, Caleb has been a little monster lately and so I of course have had to tend to him. He's getting more teeth in and they are really bothering him.
Okay girlie this is my schedule for the next couple of days. Saturday I am working from 7p-7a. Sunday I am working 11p-7a. I am off on Monday. Tuesday I am working 145p-11p. Then I won't be off until the following Monday again. Please, Please, Please give me a call though. I really have this feeling that I need to help you and be there for you.
Love ya bunches.
Jenn
