okay girl sorry that it took me soooo long to get back on here and write to you but here I am finally. I have to say thank you for the words of encouragement and I am glad that you think that I look okay. Sometimes I think that too but other times I might as well think the worse thing in the world about me....anyway I read this thing in the weight watchers plan and it said "dont even think something about yourself if you would not say it about your best friend. I really liked that because there are so many things that I would say about me but never say them about you and there are the opposite as well things that I would say to you like how great you are and how pretty that I would never say to myself. I guess what it comes down to is finding a way to be more of a best friend to yourself... and supporting yourself rather than talking down to yourself. It is so easy to say and not so hard to do.....but lets try to do this a little more.... We shall see...
I think that your body thinks that you are straving it and there for is trying despretly not to let go of its reserves because girl 500 calories a day is nada. I sure hope that you can manage to eat a little something more soon. Maybe some soup packed with REALLY well done veggies.... and maybe even some VERY VERY mushy chicken?? Someideas. I knnow it sucks but again at least it is done.
Thanks for the picture of the baby it is really cute! I took an Xanxax last night and passed out. I dont take them often but they help me sleep so when I am really tired I will take one but I think I fell asleep before gab and slept all the way through until 5 am and then again until 7:30 so as you can imagine I must have needed that sleep. I am still getting over some kind of bug to so I think that was part of it too. But I did not mean to pass out on you there so I am sorry for that!
I am really sorry that you have been down. I wish that I could make it better but I really feel like the stupid ass lexapro is partly to blame I was really bad on it. I cried all the time and gained all that weight. I am still mad alot now but I would rather be mad then sad....I get lonely but just get mad and hateful about it rather then lay here and cry like I do on medication. I think I might get a few bottles of wine and have that on the nights that I get mad.... sometimes that is when I take the xanax. I dont take a lot but when this whole thing with donna was going on I did alm ost daily but only the .25 so it is not all that bad but then since then I just filled the bottle that was due to be filled on March 15th so I had enough from feb 15th to now...or last night so I havent needed it too much. My reason for not seeking out any medication is because I dont want to gain weight and I know that I will. I think maybe even the xanax helped with this seven pounds that I gained back but I dont really know and I think that I ate enough food that I am surprised that it is not WAYYYYY more. Oh well.
Okay girlie. I think you are beautiful and a great friend. Try to take it easy and at least know that you are loved! I love you.
