Okay, so today is probably going to be sporadic with my postings, and some will probably come from my cell.
B-1 cup multigrain cheerios with 1/2 cup of milk 1/2 a large banana and a danactive yogurt drink. All in all around 300 calories (I hope)
Lets see what the rest of today brings. I am completely exhausted and could use some more sleep, but the less time I have to have Caleb with the sitter, the better I will feel. Even if I lessen it by 2 hours.
Talk to you later.
Love ya
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Monday, May 4, 2009
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K I forgot the food.
B pancakes and sausage
L meatball sandwich at home peas and a few tater tots
S a very few bites of ice cream tiny bit no lie
D turkey and cheese and mac salad
That is it so far.
C
B pancakes and sausage
L meatball sandwich at home peas and a few tater tots
S a very few bites of ice cream tiny bit no lie
D turkey and cheese and mac salad
That is it so far.
C
You got me there
You really got me when you said that you knew that your gramma would know what to say. I know what you mean. There are so many times that I sit here and say that my mother would have known what to say and what to do to get out of this mess and make my life better. I am telling you I have never been in a bigger jam. I feel like I have moved backwards and settled into loserville. Arg. no Car no savings no money no man that loves me and no mother. Wow boo hoo me. Anyway I have a bit of good news my own drum roll I cewed off all my nails and now I can type like normal again and I am happy for sure!
I ate okay today but the thing is that I have been eating a bit more at night and that is making me a bit bummed. I have not really gained anything from it but it is something that I need to fix. I told my brother that we would go to the gym tonight. I know that you are surprised about that! but yup I had made the plans with him and then forgot so we are going to be trying to go tommorrow and I really hope that I dont forget then.
Any way there is another thing that my tv show or in other words my friend that I get to see each night. On the show there is this little boy that is 11 and he is having a hard time with the fact that his parents are getting divorced and they are getting in fights and all around him. I just wanted you to get a background. any way the kid was being really good one week and then he was being really bad the next week and the dad was telling the therapist about it. The therapist said this....You son was trying to be on his best behavior to see if that would solve all of the problems because he thinks that he is the cause to them and when it did not work he decided to be extra bad to you to try to make you feel just as bad as he did for still not getting any attention. this is me. In a nut shell. Read it again if you need to but you will see me for sure.
Kelly stopped by for a few minutes today. She needed to take her husband lol somewhere and then she needed a place to stop by. I told her that she is gonna do better than me and that I have faith in her. but the truth is I dont have any faith in the convenet of marriage anymore. I think that it is dead. I am for real, maybe a bit bitter and burnt but what the hell. There was a time when people got married after a year or so of dating and you know what they loved and cared for each other come hell or high water and that was that. I dont even know if I will ever get my day. Maybe when My kids are grown up and I am like 40 I will find some guy that wants to get married but you know what I am just so sick of feeling lonely. SO SICK OF IT! What the hell do I have to do to get some attentuon. EVEN ON MY BEST BEHAVIOR NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING.
I think I should be gay too. Darn, I would get even less action then.
lol.
Move to Ct we can be married and not have sex and I would be happier. lol.
Oh Jenn I used the blog for trash tonight but I know that you are work and may be able to read it and that makes me happy to be able to share.
That being said a bit of good news.
I have to apply to grad school and it will be 50 dollars, I should get in to that for sure.
Then I need to apply to the MSW program for the Fall 2010 and I found out that I have all the requirements to get in there and if I take these three courses in the mean time and do well then I t will give me extra credit to get into the program.
It will take between 2 and 4 years and then I will be able to get somewhere....Somewhere far away....from this point where I feel llike a loser. and I am told that I am bringing HIM down.
ME
Okay my love, I will be talking to you tommorrow I hope and of course that face to face asap on Friday.
Thank you teeth for getting these nails off and thank you jenn for being my friend. If you ever need to talk to me about anything that you are going through let me know and all I can tell you is that time does not heal all but it does help.
I am also sorry abbout the eye glasses and I hope that you and your girl are seeing clearer soon.
C
I ate okay today but the thing is that I have been eating a bit more at night and that is making me a bit bummed. I have not really gained anything from it but it is something that I need to fix. I told my brother that we would go to the gym tonight. I know that you are surprised about that! but yup I had made the plans with him and then forgot so we are going to be trying to go tommorrow and I really hope that I dont forget then.
Any way there is another thing that my tv show or in other words my friend that I get to see each night. On the show there is this little boy that is 11 and he is having a hard time with the fact that his parents are getting divorced and they are getting in fights and all around him. I just wanted you to get a background. any way the kid was being really good one week and then he was being really bad the next week and the dad was telling the therapist about it. The therapist said this....You son was trying to be on his best behavior to see if that would solve all of the problems because he thinks that he is the cause to them and when it did not work he decided to be extra bad to you to try to make you feel just as bad as he did for still not getting any attention. this is me. In a nut shell. Read it again if you need to but you will see me for sure.
Kelly stopped by for a few minutes today. She needed to take her husband lol somewhere and then she needed a place to stop by. I told her that she is gonna do better than me and that I have faith in her. but the truth is I dont have any faith in the convenet of marriage anymore. I think that it is dead. I am for real, maybe a bit bitter and burnt but what the hell. There was a time when people got married after a year or so of dating and you know what they loved and cared for each other come hell or high water and that was that. I dont even know if I will ever get my day. Maybe when My kids are grown up and I am like 40 I will find some guy that wants to get married but you know what I am just so sick of feeling lonely. SO SICK OF IT! What the hell do I have to do to get some attentuon. EVEN ON MY BEST BEHAVIOR NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING.
I think I should be gay too. Darn, I would get even less action then.
lol.
Move to Ct we can be married and not have sex and I would be happier. lol.
Oh Jenn I used the blog for trash tonight but I know that you are work and may be able to read it and that makes me happy to be able to share.
That being said a bit of good news.
I have to apply to grad school and it will be 50 dollars, I should get in to that for sure.
Then I need to apply to the MSW program for the Fall 2010 and I found out that I have all the requirements to get in there and if I take these three courses in the mean time and do well then I t will give me extra credit to get into the program.
It will take between 2 and 4 years and then I will be able to get somewhere....Somewhere far away....from this point where I feel llike a loser. and I am told that I am bringing HIM down.
ME
Okay my love, I will be talking to you tommorrow I hope and of course that face to face asap on Friday.
Thank you teeth for getting these nails off and thank you jenn for being my friend. If you ever need to talk to me about anything that you are going through let me know and all I can tell you is that time does not heal all but it does help.
I am also sorry abbout the eye glasses and I hope that you and your girl are seeing clearer soon.
C
Try again
Crys,
I tried to type this yesterday, but never got to finish it.
Yesterday this is what I ate:
B-12-15 dry Kashi Cinnamon Harvest squares
L-Tuna salad and Tuna on toasted french bread (3x3 Inch)
D-cranberry chicken salad (230 calories) and a slice of pizza
Not too bad, but then you add in the 1/2 bag of M&M's AND 2/3 of a Dr. Pepper and all of it goes down the toilet.
Today, Autumn and I had eye appts got out at noon and stopped by Burger King, and yes I ate a whopper with onion rings and drank most of my Dr. Pepper. For breakfast I ate good though, 1/2 a bagel with PB and 3/4 of an apple. So needless to say today is shot, but it is what it is, right?
I am hoping to move to CT, trust me, it is just going to take some time. I have a plane that I am going to put $100 away a month and then by the time I have enough money saved I will have my degree and some experience under my belt. So it is a work in progress.
Well today at the eye dr. we found out that Autumn has a convergence disorder and needs.....drum roll please.....BIFOCALS! My poor baby. So I am going to shell out the extra 100 bucks so she can have no lines. I on the other hand am just needing a stronger prescription, with both orders we are going to shell out over $600. YUP! Without insurance it would have been close to if not over $!500. So I guess thank God for VSP.
I am still just breathing. I am having a hard time with the whole grandmother thing, I have sat back already at numerous times and said "WOW I could really talk to her right now, she would know what to say." So needless to say I am still not over the whole issue.
I miss talking to ya girl....I've needed a shoulder to cry on a couple of times now, and it's either too late or I am at work or something else gets in the way. I really could use a talk with ya though, hopefully on Friday when we are both off.
I'm glad to hear about you seriously thinking about going back to school, I think that would be awesome. Congrats!
Okay chickie, I am at work like always, I will talk to you soon.
Love ya,
Jenn
I tried to type this yesterday, but never got to finish it.
Yesterday this is what I ate:
B-12-15 dry Kashi Cinnamon Harvest squares
L-Tuna salad and Tuna on toasted french bread (3x3 Inch)
D-cranberry chicken salad (230 calories) and a slice of pizza
Not too bad, but then you add in the 1/2 bag of M&M's AND 2/3 of a Dr. Pepper and all of it goes down the toilet.
Today, Autumn and I had eye appts got out at noon and stopped by Burger King, and yes I ate a whopper with onion rings and drank most of my Dr. Pepper. For breakfast I ate good though, 1/2 a bagel with PB and 3/4 of an apple. So needless to say today is shot, but it is what it is, right?
I am hoping to move to CT, trust me, it is just going to take some time. I have a plane that I am going to put $100 away a month and then by the time I have enough money saved I will have my degree and some experience under my belt. So it is a work in progress.
Well today at the eye dr. we found out that Autumn has a convergence disorder and needs.....drum roll please.....BIFOCALS! My poor baby. So I am going to shell out the extra 100 bucks so she can have no lines. I on the other hand am just needing a stronger prescription, with both orders we are going to shell out over $600. YUP! Without insurance it would have been close to if not over $!500. So I guess thank God for VSP.
I am still just breathing. I am having a hard time with the whole grandmother thing, I have sat back already at numerous times and said "WOW I could really talk to her right now, she would know what to say." So needless to say I am still not over the whole issue.
I miss talking to ya girl....I've needed a shoulder to cry on a couple of times now, and it's either too late or I am at work or something else gets in the way. I really could use a talk with ya though, hopefully on Friday when we are both off.
I'm glad to hear about you seriously thinking about going back to school, I think that would be awesome. Congrats!
Okay chickie, I am at work like always, I will talk to you soon.
Love ya,
Jenn
And this makes 200!!!
This is our 200th post! I would say that that shows devotion to the matter at hand what do you think? I am okay today as I hope you are too. I am thinking alot more about going back to school and I even called the grad school today to make an appt. I am waiting for them to call me back. Anyways, I hope you are doing well and everything is god for you.
So far I ate
B pancakes and sauasage with coffee
But it is only 12 ish and my tummy is rummbling so we will see.
Talk to you later lovey..
C
So far I ate
B pancakes and sauasage with coffee
But it is only 12 ish and my tummy is rummbling so we will see.
Talk to you later lovey..
C
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Okay this is what I ate today
B bagel and coffee
S no
L macoroni with sauce and meatballs at grammies
S fruit with whipped cream light
D pasta with olive oil broccolli and cheese
S a few mini candy bars 4.to be exact, and glass of ff milk.
Okay I know that I ate alot today, and alot or most was carbs so jenn you are probally shaking your head but anyway I walkes two and half miles so cancel out my snacks or something..:)
Move to Ct
Love ya
C
B bagel and coffee
S no
L macoroni with sauce and meatballs at grammies
S fruit with whipped cream light
D pasta with olive oil broccolli and cheese
S a few mini candy bars 4.to be exact, and glass of ff milk.
Okay I know that I ate alot today, and alot or most was carbs so jenn you are probally shaking your head but anyway I walkes two and half miles so cancel out my snacks or something..:)
Move to Ct
Love ya
C
Saturday, May 2, 2009
This is what I ate today...
B pancakes and sausage
S no
L grilled cheese and corn
S a piece of gab dounut and a banana with coffee
D pork chop a potato corn and some stuffing i know bad I know....
S granola bar with peanut butter and FF milk
I feel like I ate a ton today.....But I am starting again tommorrow. And tommorrow is the walk for autism that I am doing with my co workers and that will be a bit of excerise built in!
Talk to you tommorrow I hope...
And start packing, you all need to move to CT......
C
B pancakes and sausage
S no
L grilled cheese and corn
S a piece of gab dounut and a banana with coffee
D pork chop a potato corn and some stuffing i know bad I know....
S granola bar with peanut butter and FF milk
I feel like I ate a ton today.....But I am starting again tommorrow. And tommorrow is the walk for autism that I am doing with my co workers and that will be a bit of excerise built in!
Talk to you tommorrow I hope...
And start packing, you all need to move to CT......
C
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