morning of day five and I am just popping on for reinforcement. I have not been tracking and writing my weight like crazy but I am planning on up dating with you at the 7th day.....So we shall see
B egg on toast one slice cheese and coffee
Friday, November 6, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
4 or so
Day 4....I think.
I did okay today I ate a little more than I played and I am about to go drink a shot or two or gin. lol.... Just because no other reason....
So,
B egg and cheese on toast and a sausage
S banana
L baja chicken wrap
S coffee
D past w tomato sauce and a meatball
S two graham crackers with some PB and a banana
Yeah it was the Dinner that killed it but that is what I ate...and I want to be honest about it and that is what is the most important to me.
I wrote aimee an email I have no idea if she will be able to answer but I asked her about those of us in really bad relationships and what she thinks god would want us to do and I really want to see what she says. I will let you know. I dont know if I can be your partner I think I am going to have a really hard time going through with the things that she is suggesting but I will do it for you I just cannot say that I will be doing the same things as well you know. I tried the greeting at the door thing and thought about the cooking thing but you know what I cook all the time for John and it never gets me anywhere. When I make things he will say what is this slop? he will eat it and like it but he has to make those comments first to make me feel bad or say oh your no martha stewart.....
I really want to see what aimee says back I have to know.
I did okay today I ate a little more than I played and I am about to go drink a shot or two or gin. lol.... Just because no other reason....
So,
B egg and cheese on toast and a sausage
S banana
L baja chicken wrap
S coffee
D past w tomato sauce and a meatball
S two graham crackers with some PB and a banana
Yeah it was the Dinner that killed it but that is what I ate...and I want to be honest about it and that is what is the most important to me.
I wrote aimee an email I have no idea if she will be able to answer but I asked her about those of us in really bad relationships and what she thinks god would want us to do and I really want to see what she says. I will let you know. I dont know if I can be your partner I think I am going to have a really hard time going through with the things that she is suggesting but I will do it for you I just cannot say that I will be doing the same things as well you know. I tried the greeting at the door thing and thought about the cooking thing but you know what I cook all the time for John and it never gets me anywhere. When I make things he will say what is this slop? he will eat it and like it but he has to make those comments first to make me feel bad or say oh your no martha stewart.....
I really want to see what aimee says back I have to know.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
RIght and not Tight!
Oh boy....I was like thinking outloud and it did not come out clear....
The 30 day thing is to try to make blogging and tracking what I eat a habit again. Because when I was doing that was when I really lost weight! So since I stopped I stopped losing and in fact gained back five pounds which I hate to admit! SO I am trying to get to 30 days with out making any days go by that I am not on here. Even if it is a quick little thing I just have to know that you are looking at it and there for I will fell bad about eating like a pig!
The negitive thing was just a side note. but I have to try. I have been unhappy with mylife for a long time now and I need to change the one thing that I can in it. My self. By changing myself and my outlook on things I am hoping that I will be more happy. We shall see. I am sure that I will still complain and girl I never mind hearing you complain that is what friends are for. I just think This is something I want to try for me.
So the great thing about the condo is it is down the street from a REALLY nice gym that opens at 4:30....I think I can get there! They have a sauna! WHooo hooo
Today I ate...
B egg sandwich
Sno
L baja chicken wrap wendys
BIG S lol Flat bread snadwich and hash browns
D two pieces cheese pizza
I had that class tonight and I had to eat on the run so I ate the DD stuff but then when I got home I was still hungry and John had ordered pizza for him and the kids so I ate again. I never said that I would be perfect but here it is.
I think I said this but I am not sure. I want to sign up for weight watchers and I think that I am going to go either tommorrow or the next day and sign up. I really want to go and I think that it will help me. I get so mad at myself for not having lost this last 20 pounds. Grr. It has to happen.
Also, Today I went to the store and bought three pairs of size 8 jeans. NOW they are really tight and my belly hangs over them a little so I have to pair them with a lose sweater but here are my thoughts rather than having pants that are falling off me and that I can eat whatever and they will still be lose and I have to keep pulling them up and people look at me like what is wrong with her that she is not wearing a belt???lol... I figured that I would be better off with the tight pants that are saying girl LOSE WEIGHT!!! every time I put them on.....I would like them to fit me well by Christmas. I just want them to fit right I am not even saying I want to lose this by this date just that I want these three pairs of pants to fit RIGHT NOT TIGHT!
I miss you so much too! I would not know what to do if I found you moving my way....maybe back flips....Work on Jeff will you....He would love it and God so would I. If you come stay in CT I will have my basement finished up by then with a family room that has PLENTY of places to sleep you can bring the whole crew and I will bye blow up beds!!!!! Goody goody gum drops!
Talk to you soon! Keep up the good work! I hope you feel better and go CALEB with the talking! Gab new thing is over said YES and I do! Everytime she wants to do something! Has Caleb got his flu shot? How did he do if he did?
Crystal
The 30 day thing is to try to make blogging and tracking what I eat a habit again. Because when I was doing that was when I really lost weight! So since I stopped I stopped losing and in fact gained back five pounds which I hate to admit! SO I am trying to get to 30 days with out making any days go by that I am not on here. Even if it is a quick little thing I just have to know that you are looking at it and there for I will fell bad about eating like a pig!
The negitive thing was just a side note. but I have to try. I have been unhappy with mylife for a long time now and I need to change the one thing that I can in it. My self. By changing myself and my outlook on things I am hoping that I will be more happy. We shall see. I am sure that I will still complain and girl I never mind hearing you complain that is what friends are for. I just think This is something I want to try for me.
So the great thing about the condo is it is down the street from a REALLY nice gym that opens at 4:30....I think I can get there! They have a sauna! WHooo hooo
Today I ate...
B egg sandwich
Sno
L baja chicken wrap wendys
BIG S lol Flat bread snadwich and hash browns
D two pieces cheese pizza
I had that class tonight and I had to eat on the run so I ate the DD stuff but then when I got home I was still hungry and John had ordered pizza for him and the kids so I ate again. I never said that I would be perfect but here it is.
I think I said this but I am not sure. I want to sign up for weight watchers and I think that I am going to go either tommorrow or the next day and sign up. I really want to go and I think that it will help me. I get so mad at myself for not having lost this last 20 pounds. Grr. It has to happen.
Also, Today I went to the store and bought three pairs of size 8 jeans. NOW they are really tight and my belly hangs over them a little so I have to pair them with a lose sweater but here are my thoughts rather than having pants that are falling off me and that I can eat whatever and they will still be lose and I have to keep pulling them up and people look at me like what is wrong with her that she is not wearing a belt???lol... I figured that I would be better off with the tight pants that are saying girl LOSE WEIGHT!!! every time I put them on.....I would like them to fit me well by Christmas. I just want them to fit right I am not even saying I want to lose this by this date just that I want these three pairs of pants to fit RIGHT NOT TIGHT!
I miss you so much too! I would not know what to do if I found you moving my way....maybe back flips....Work on Jeff will you....He would love it and God so would I. If you come stay in CT I will have my basement finished up by then with a family room that has PLENTY of places to sleep you can bring the whole crew and I will bye blow up beds!!!!! Goody goody gum drops!
Talk to you soon! Keep up the good work! I hope you feel better and go CALEB with the talking! Gab new thing is over said YES and I do! Everytime she wants to do something! Has Caleb got his flu shot? How did he do if he did?
Crystal
Okay, so I have read your last two blog posts and am trying to be sure that I know what you're goal and intention is. Sorry, I guess I am just not that smart to know exactly what you're doing. I can only think that you are doing like a 30 day challenge for decreasing your negativity and increasing your positivity. I am getting the gist that you are also trying to get back on track to hitting your goal weight. Am I anywhere close?
I will jump on the bandwagon with you on the negativity thing. I know that EVERYTHING that comes out of my mouth is negative. I have lost all happiness that I could have ever had. So, I will try my best to jump on here nightly and post. I am not going to promise anything though.
So, today was a good day overall. I managed to get my kitchen cleaned all the way, of course there are dishes sitting now, but I will get them done tonight. I was also able to get a lot of laundry done. Autumn and Codey helped immensley with the living room, and Mr. Caleb the bullet, is of course playing and undoing the work we have done. But oh well, he is behaving and having fun.
Oh, new words and phrases for Caleb: What's up? What? Why? How? Cool. Do you see it ? (He says it when he hears a train) so right now I am trying to teach him "Do you hear it?" Butt. Poop. (Which he uses appropriately) There are some more, but I can't remember them all.
This is what I ate today:
B-1 chocolate chip muffin
S-None
L-A grilled chicken sandwich (Wheat bread, piece of cheese and the chicken)
S-None
D-Marinated Pork Chops with corn on the cob and a buiscuit. I may make some rice or garlic pasta, but we will see.
If you haven't had a chance to, go check out the new blog from Aimee, she has a link to it from Kayleighs site. I am going to try it and see what it brings me. I am hoping it helps on a multitude of levles. Besides, I would love for you to be my accountability partner!
Tomorrow is going to be busy for me. I have to get Jeffs check, cash it, go to Artesia and pay on the X-mas layaway. Come back, get my check go pay mortgate, go grocery shopping, and gosh there is more, but I can't remember.
Crys, I really miss you. I sit a lot of times and remember the last night I was there (more often I sit and think about my whole time there!). I just think that it would be so fun living near you. We could walk together, go to they gym when it is so cold our sweat would turn to ice cicles, take the kids to the park together and cook for each other. I am wishing that I can get there some day.
I tried uploading some pictures but it took forever. I will try later to post some pics of Halloween.
I guess that is it girlie. Jeff should be back some time tonight. I can't wait, it has been so lonely without him.
Love you,
Jenn
I will jump on the bandwagon with you on the negativity thing. I know that EVERYTHING that comes out of my mouth is negative. I have lost all happiness that I could have ever had. So, I will try my best to jump on here nightly and post. I am not going to promise anything though.
So, today was a good day overall. I managed to get my kitchen cleaned all the way, of course there are dishes sitting now, but I will get them done tonight. I was also able to get a lot of laundry done. Autumn and Codey helped immensley with the living room, and Mr. Caleb the bullet, is of course playing and undoing the work we have done. But oh well, he is behaving and having fun.
Oh, new words and phrases for Caleb: What's up? What? Why? How? Cool. Do you see it ? (He says it when he hears a train) so right now I am trying to teach him "Do you hear it?" Butt. Poop. (Which he uses appropriately) There are some more, but I can't remember them all.
This is what I ate today:
B-1 chocolate chip muffin
S-None
L-A grilled chicken sandwich (Wheat bread, piece of cheese and the chicken)
S-None
D-Marinated Pork Chops with corn on the cob and a buiscuit. I may make some rice or garlic pasta, but we will see.
If you haven't had a chance to, go check out the new blog from Aimee, she has a link to it from Kayleighs site. I am going to try it and see what it brings me. I am hoping it helps on a multitude of levles. Besides, I would love for you to be my accountability partner!
Tomorrow is going to be busy for me. I have to get Jeffs check, cash it, go to Artesia and pay on the X-mas layaway. Come back, get my check go pay mortgate, go grocery shopping, and gosh there is more, but I can't remember.
Crys, I really miss you. I sit a lot of times and remember the last night I was there (more often I sit and think about my whole time there!). I just think that it would be so fun living near you. We could walk together, go to they gym when it is so cold our sweat would turn to ice cicles, take the kids to the park together and cook for each other. I am wishing that I can get there some day.
I tried uploading some pictures but it took forever. I will try later to post some pics of Halloween.
I guess that is it girlie. Jeff should be back some time tonight. I can't wait, it has been so lonely without him.
Love you,
Jenn
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Day 2....28 to go...It is a start!
Let me out of this rut!
I have used this blog to complain alot. I have noticed that my focus has been on the negitives in my life all this time and that is not healthy.
So I need to find a way to move along and look at my life as a groing plant and figure out what I want to feed it....Or something lol.
So To start today I did really well. I had no snacks besides for the banana that I just ate. I got gab and Darren out to the park for a bit and even though I did not do much at all at the park I was there out in the fresh air.
I ate
D chicken, rice and peas
S banana
And I told you the things that I had early.
I am about to watch so you think you can dance and I really like that. I am glad that it is on tonight.
Okay....talk to you soon.
Crystal
day 1
So today I ate
B one and half eggs with a slice of cheese on a roll and coffee with two sugars and milk...
For L I am about to have a turkey sandwich with one slice of cheese and some spinach
I did not have a dounut when my gram bought them and did not have apple crisp when everyone esle was having it.
It is a start....And writing down what i eat I know is going to be key. Lets see if I can start a pattern again.
Day one of 30....That's my goal....here we go.
At day 30 i will set a new goal....
B one and half eggs with a slice of cheese on a roll and coffee with two sugars and milk...
For L I am about to have a turkey sandwich with one slice of cheese and some spinach
I did not have a dounut when my gram bought them and did not have apple crisp when everyone esle was having it.
It is a start....And writing down what i eat I know is going to be key. Lets see if I can start a pattern again.
Day one of 30....That's my goal....here we go.
At day 30 i will set a new goal....
Monday, November 2, 2009
gotta get back
I dont know what to say...
I have not been that good at all and I have gained back 5 pounds. I weigh 158 and it is no good. Whatever.
I am going to join weight watchers this week because I cannot do it alone any more.
I miss you and I miss this blog. We gotta get back here. Good job for getting back to the gym.
I will be here tommorrow.
C
I have not been that good at all and I have gained back 5 pounds. I weigh 158 and it is no good. Whatever.
I am going to join weight watchers this week because I cannot do it alone any more.
I miss you and I miss this blog. We gotta get back here. Good job for getting back to the gym.
I will be here tommorrow.
C
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